In my head

The characters in my head, the emotions wanting to be recognized and take the spotlight. Fear and anxiety seem to work hand in hand and it's ruining everything. I want to give up and live along the flow of life, like a dead fish.

People around me are like a pain. I don't like to feel this way, I know it's just the evil feeding my mind. Maybe, people around me cause stress and pain and make me hate them, but I shouldn't look at them as someone who I don't want to see anymore.

These feelings may be valid but it doesn't mean I should let myself be eaten by these thoughts and emotions. I prayed to God. I don't want these feelings. I have a lot of doubt in myself and I have a fear of deciding because I may mess everything up. I realized I am just lacking the Words of encouragement from God because I am not reading His Words. I should meditate on His words every day so these kinds of emotions will not ruin me.

I am always thankful to God for guiding me, especially on my darkest days. Even though I failed Him many times, the moment I asked for forgiveness and surrendered everything to Him, everything started to fall into place. I know I will experience discipline for my wrongdoings, but I understand it's for me to learn my lesson and to depart from it. God also test me in various situations to make me strong. The road will not be easy but He is always with me.

Inside Out 2 is a very relatable movie. I haven't watched this movie but maybe soon. I can relate to some of the scenes I saw in my Facebook newsfeed.

This is just a random feeling I need to let out, thanks for reaching this part of the blog <3