Being Alone is not a bad thing

in Writing Club2 years ago

If you are lonely when you're alone, you are in a bad company.

Jean-Paul Sartre

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Books and Periodicals: A small bookstore close to my neighbourhood
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Baatighar Dhaka: This one is pretty large. Maybe the largest bookstore chain in Bangladesh
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This is my Kindle Paperwhite 5

There was a time when I didn’t like the idea of being alone. My parents used to say that I had more friends than I had hair on my head. Over the time, I lost almost all of them. Life got busier. Most of them flew away to other countries. I lost connection with the rest.

Since childhood, I learned being alone because I didn’t have any siblings. I felt lonely at home. Then luckily, one of my uncle brought some books for me. He was an avid reader. It was a game-changing event for me. I read on and on.

Books give me the best company I could ever imagine. I can easily spend 3-4 hours in a bookstore. I get the opportunity to meet with renowned authors of the country.

Whenever I go somewhere, I turn my Smart Audiobook Player in my phone and start listening to them instead of music. I like music, but I prefer Audiobooks over music.

I am actually a reader. I never thought that I could write. Since I was introduced to Hive Blockchain, I thought that, maybe, I could write a little. This writing habit helps me to think and implement the things I learn throughout the day. I only read before I came here. Now the writing takes a significant amount of my time to be creative. I am aware of my ignorance, and I'm trying to improve. That's why I try to write something everyday. If I stop writing only for a day, I would lost the interest to write.

I am confused right here, whether I should take time to write a "Perfect" post or I should write whatever my mind tells me to write.

I think, the quality of doing anything gets better over time and practice. I'll laugh at this very post after five or six years as I do when I see my Facebook posts that I wrote back in 2010s.

Speaking of money, who doesn’t like it? But I think, I should focus on writing. If it pays off, it's ok. If it doesn’t, I don't care. I don't even care about the "Downvotes". I only want to keep writing. At least, it will give me confidence to write a book. I quit Facebook to focus on my reading and writing. I didn’t dare to write in Facebook back then. Now I am confident that I can write better than most of my friends on Facebook. I obtained this confidence from Hive. No question about it. By seeing lots of quality posts on Hive, I feel encouraged to write more. I only need more "alone" time.

So, I think, loneliness is a blessing for me. I got distracted by my five year old son while writing this post two or three times. Finally I had to shut the door for an hour. He kept banging on the door. Then I had to take him outside in this bad weather to buy some chocolates. When I came back to write, I lost everything I was thinking about to write. It happens and I envy those who has no such problems. While writing the poem "Kubla Khan", someone came to S. T. Coleridge's house. When he was finished with the person and came back to his table, he forgot the rest of his dream. The poem he was writing, came from his dream that night. Therefore, it's not just a blessing, it's a privilege if you have that kind of luxury. Yes, I call it a luxury, a luxury that I long for every *ucking day.