Once upon a memory...

I remember the flush of excitement, the happy dance and cheek to cheek grin. The swelling in my heart, that went on everytime I shared the news to anyone.
I had just been called for an audition and yes! This was my first time.

I don't draw or paint but I call myself an artist, because I believe art is in expressing creativity, whether it's an idea, talent, whatever it is really.

For me acting is an art because it allows me to take different sounds, personalities, it allows me to transform into anything for a purpose. The purpose can be for entertainment, inspiration, something that leaves people feeling different.

Right from childhood, I've always been the dramatic one, even at home my siblings always thought I was exaggerative and I couldn't help it.

I remember one time in primary school, we had our end of year party, and each class had to do a presentation of any kind.
My classroom teacher said to me, " we are acting drama this year and you're the leader of the team".
That alone really boosted the baby passion I had. The presentation was not a competition but I was lavishly commended.

Fast forward to few years ahead, a friend sent me a link about some movie production going on around my neighborhood that I wasn't aware of and boom! Guess who showed up at the location like I came to run the town? Me.

I got into the auditorium, the crowd was frightening but I kept reminding myself of how much this means to me, and how this could literally be my chance to hit it big.

I was heavily nervous, even a toodler could tell. I met two people at the entrance, they looked like they could help me with vital information, so I inquired and I was given a number and was asked to wait outside untill I heard my number.

I sat outside googling tips on how to Ace an audition for the upteenth time, since I got the news.
After what felt like forever, my anxiety kicked when I heard my number. I did the breath in and out technique, while pretending to the judges that I was ready to perform and I guess it worked.

The role given to me was pretty easy since I was already in character. Act scared and surprised at the same time and believe me I couldn't even tell if I was acting this one😂.

On my way out of the stage, after the judges asked me to wait outside for the final result, and the next thing I heard was " I think we have a role for you already" and whoa! I almost exploded, untill he said the role.
Apparently my physique is perfect to play the role of a secondary School student.

I honestly didn't know how to feel in that moment, but I did take the offer. I didn't feel like I had much of a choice.

I left that room that day questioning my talent and how passionate I was about it.
I didn't give up on my passion, but I was mad at myself for being so short, if I was taller maybe I would have landed a more important role.

The news spread, and I understand why. My parents were really proud of me for getting a role in the movie but I didn't entirely feel the same way.

I haven't auditioned for a while now, because I have been filling myself with excuses, of my height and weight.
I know I would eventually get right with my Passion, as soon as possible.

Thank you for stopping by today, I hope you enjoyed the story 😊
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