Trigger warning: I will speak about body shaming, domestic violence, sexism, and ageism in this post. If you are more interested in the knitting, crochet and embroidery techniques hop to the last paragraph.
Get this into your head
There are a lot of things you should get into your head when you are read as female, so many that sometimes the mass of them leeks out again, a bloody pool full of contradictions.
You should wear make-up to look professional and cultivated. But wearing make-up makes you cheap.
You should be sex-positive, but then you are a whore. If you dislike sex, you are frigid. Is there even a word for a male person who dislikes sex? Why is wanting/not-wanting sex pathologized in female persons?
Better speak up to not be categorized as a wall flower or little girl which cannot fight for itself. But if you speak up you are argumentative, angry, catty? Perhaps a man would be categorized as analytical and passionate. No way to win for you, my dear.
You want children, good for you, but never to forget to also have a career. And be reassured that there is no way to make it right. You always will be judged, and you always will fail.
When you are fat than you are sick when you are thin you are sick. You know real women have curves. But the right curves, at the correct places, in an exact right amount. What? No curves? Did fashion change again? Ok, then get your implants out and be small and ethereal. This is also not ok? No idea how you should change? No problem as long as you try, try, try, try, try…
You are always too loud, too fat, too barren, too plain, too sexy, too motherly, too old, too inexperienced, too cold, too hot, too dressed up, too aggressive, too thin, too timid, too frigid, too demanding, too wordy, too much but not enough.
Want to escape the not-good-enough then do some sports and eat clean – only joking – needed are heavy surgical means and a life dedicated to force your body to perfection. Brazilian butt lift, taking out rips, pushing fat from one body part to another, to manage the contradictions of a lush hourglass with chiseled muscles, a perfectly rounded booty but a thigh-gap, nevertheless. And if you are willing to go through pain and danger of surgery, you also need a lot of money, not only for the procedures themselves, but also to rest from them. Beauty is status is money.
And when you are bled out your head is cut off. Metaphorical but horribly sometimes even for real. Deathly violence against women seldom happens out of the blue sky, no, most female homicides (femicides) are committed by relatives or the male partner and have a history of domestic violence. Men – which is also tragic in its own are much more often victim of random violence. The tragic about female homicides is that many could have been prevented if claims of abuse would be taken more seriously, if the status of women would be higher, if there were more shelters for women who want to escape their abusive environment. If female bodies would not be sexualized. There is a real possibility to make life safer for women.
But who cares, they will grow old and expire, stopping to be women at all, becoming invisible, becoming nothing.
Materials, techniques and what I have done
The avid reader of my blog may remember parts of the „get this into your head“ installation. I have written about the small clay and crochet sculpture here, about the photo collage here and about the huge doll here. And finally you can see how this all goes together. But there are some new parts I added and I want to tell you about.
The huge doll which I wanted to represent the sexualized female body I completed with a tight corset-like belt, which is marketed as a „waist trainer“ (an absurdity in itself, as if one would get smaller permanently because of wearing something tight) and with crocheted breasts. For the latter I used a free pattern for knockers which I stuffed and sewed onto the dolls body. I intentionally made the breast different, one more stuffed as the other and one a tad wider, as most women do not have perfectly symmetrical and identical breasts. I was inspired for this by a friend who told me, that she had a for her traumatic event at a gynecologist when she was very young. He told her that she looked funny with her uneven breast and she - still in puberty - felt extremely uncomfortable with a non-medical comment about her breasts. Besides she did not knew that this „asymmetry“ was normal and so felt as if she was especially ugly. I felt honored that she shared her experiences with me, but on the other hand it shows that a careless and inattentive comment can have a huge negative impact on people.
To accentuate the missing, but from fashion often as beauty standard propagated thigh gap, I inserted a ruler between the doll’s tights. I embroidered the legs with different shades of brown, pink, and lilac to mimic chafed and bruised skin where the ruler is inserted.
(And friends you know how much embroidery and hand sewing hurt me… this was really suffering for art :-DDDD)
At least I opened the neckline to let the stuffing spill out and to achieve the dramatic impression of someone just killed.
The second new addition is the crochet basket in half double crochet, I made for the tiny doll head, the one I used as a model for the photo collage. I added long strings made from foundation single crochet to hang it up like a swing or a cradle.
The last artwork is a knitted wall-hanging which I embroidered with the title of this installation „Get this into your head“. The background is knitted in stockinette and to avoid curling I threaded stiff wire through the edges. Whereas the embroidery is not secured at all. The ends of the threads are hanging precariously out of the knitted panel and could unravel every moment.
To connect all these different artworks stylistically I used two main colors, a blood red, and a very light pink which you can find either in the three dolls, the wall-hanging, and it’s also repeated in the colors of the photo collage.
Right now, I am packing and unpacking this installation (and a bunch of paintings and sculptures) to move it from the last exhibition into my studio and next week into the new showroom. I am still unsure how we will set up all the works in the new room, as we could see it only from the outside so far. Hopefully this will work out 😊
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This is great. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you for the support
Beautifully made that for sharing @neumannsalva
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These are difficult topics to make art about and, by their nature, the art work is so fragile. I was wondering about the packing and unpacking and how that process and the fractional damage created each time they are handled (or just the exposure to the environment when they are exhibited) and how that adds to their story.
Do you have an idea of how the pieces will be displayed each time? In a certain juxtaposition to each other or will it change with different environments? You talked in your other post (sorry, I have only just read it) about the idea of selling the piece ... would it have to be displayed in a certain way?
I keep being reminded, perhaps I said before when you posted about the body, of a debate here about how murdered women were presented in crime novels (they are framed in a certain way) ... one (woman) crime writer responded that as long as women are murdered I will write about them.
Fragmented thoughts (and so many others), I will come back again when I have had time to process.
The next exhibition will be set up by myself, so I will try to find a way to not damage the works more (the last room was not as clean as we hoped). But how I will arrange them is still unsure, as we cannot go inside this room before the real set-up. I hope I will com up with a good arrangement. So far I am not sure how to display the tiny sculptures, so that they are visible from the outside...
And yes a complicated topic, with a lot of layers. I was very surprised to hear so many stories during the exhibition in May from women... how they feel in their body, how they feel society treats them. But to be honest, most stories were more sad than uplifting. The underlying tenor was that most women felt bad about themselves (young and older ones) and on the other hand the were adamant about society not having a pull on them and that all ideas about self-optimisation came from themselves (as if the self is independent from society...)
Ups... just had a look at the watch... need to run to a train... ahhhhhhhh
You forgot to say that if you are interested in all these things and you care about how society behaves in the face of it, you are an extremist feminist who hates men and hates being a woman :-p. I don't know if it's an extended term in more languages, but "femi-nazi" is used a lot here. God, sometimes I hate people.
This exhibition is so cool, I would love to go. I hope everything turns out great in the new showroom ❤️.
Yep, the "feminazi" is a thing here too. But as I am in Germany most people do not dare to speak this aloud, but online they have no restrains.
As if one wants men to suffer only because women want the same rights or want to improve the situation for them. I know many men (and women) think like this, but its so wrong.. rigid gender roles are no good for anybody as is for example visible in the huge amount of male suicides (because they are so "tough" they need no psychological help etc.)
We will start to set up the exhibition on Monday. I also hope it will go well. THe artists who are in this room before us do not answer to Silvias mails. We wanted to know if we could deposit some things at this weekend (we have a car at the weekend)... but as they do not answer, it will be a bit more stressful next week.
wow!!! you raised a very deep and painful topic for many, my dear! I'm afraid that this is unsolvable in our society at the moment. after all, everything that you listed as the cause of women's misfortunes is actually just being promoted
You are right, that at the moment there is not so much movement in the right direction, but who knows maybe such exhibitions can inspire people to start a change again (like in the seventies).
I really enjoyed seeing your art. I'm glad to find an artist friend like you. Thank you for republishing my first post, but thank you for supporting me from now on and republishing the posts I write.
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Thank you for stopping by. But I am not sure what you mean with "thank you for republishing my first post" I cannot remember to have done such a thing... :-)
What kind of art do you make?
My god, increíble, this should be around the World . Congrats.🦋❤️
Thank you so much for this lovely compliment <3<3 And yes please, fame would be cool :-DDD
What can I say of myself. I took me time to live above this perfection.
Have often felt like someone with no looks to attract anybody, I couldn't even own a boyfriend of my own 😂😀.
Now I see more people marrying dolls because society couldn't accept them not only for their character but this physique.
Well its fine for me as I accepted myself to live just the way I was created.
Am at peace with my body and whatever changes comes with this and I wish many women will recognize this and find some peace too.
Thank you for expressing our feelings in this powerful piece of artwork.
It makes me a bit sad to read this, as I think you are absolutely beautiful, creative and tenacious in working on your goals. Not good society makes someone as beautiful as you belive she is not.
But on the other hand it shows how much most (all?) women depend on the outside view and hopefully, as you stated, can get piece by ignoring all these demands.
Thank you for your constant support <3
Wow, the artwork along with your words expressing what women go through is truly powerful. I remember all of the pieces you’ve showed us before but when putting it all together it makes a whole new bold statement.
I recently watched some old news about one one of the members of a singing group I used to listen to back then. It was very upsetting to find out he abused his wife for several years and then eventually murdered her. She was a beautiful mother who was just about to make it big in her career and after his career failed due to him walking out of the group a few years earlier. She was making plans to leave him and get out of the abusive situation but it was one of those “if I can’t have her nobody can.” Still to this day I think it’s so unbelievable that most violence against women happens right in their own homes by the hands of those they love. 😔
I look forward to seeing how this installation does in the new showroom. Please keep us posted ~
I was also shocked while researching the domestic violence topic. Somehow I knew this… but reading again, how many offenders are from the nearest family makes me speechless and sad. I am sorry to hear of the singer you liked… that she was a mother adds another layer of tragic to this.
And with the showroom. We are nearly done. We will bring the last artwork into the showroom today (from Silvi… kind of funny… she tried out a new technique and painted on plexiglass but did not think about the weight several layered plexiglass panes will have: one artwork 27 kg 🤣 🤣 🤣) We need Roman to help carrying the
beastartwork, because its so unwieldy.Yes it was very tragic and sad.
Oh wow awesome that you are nearly done! Lol oh goodness I hope you all get those pieces moved with success!!