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Sometimes I feel like I'm in the middle of a battle.
A battle that no one else can see or even recognize...
The days may all seem the same to me, but there is always something that stands out. There is something I can do differently. Every day, I have the opportunity to try something new or do something different.
And different does not necessarily mean better.
Often, the best does not appear right away.
I do something different, but it ends up being less advantageous.
Less advantageous for everyone. Starting with me.
That's when a feeling of emptiness can arise...
And when I see emptiness somewhere... especially in the spirit, I have an almost instant urge to fill it. But I don't always end up filling it with something beneficial.
And why do I so often treat myself as if I were a dog? That's right, I didn't make a mistake when I wrote that... a dog. It seems that I feel the need to reward myself for something I did well. Or to compensate for something less pleasant that happened to me. I have the impulse to relieve that pain... that unpleasant feeling with something... I desperately need a small dopamine rush, and that often leads me to make bad decisions.
I don't think there are many things as harmful as addiction. And by addiction, I don't just mean illegal substances. Many addictions, in fact most of them, are to completely legal substances or products. And the damage isn't immediate.
You only realize it many weeks, months, or even years later.
I trade the benefit I would have in the medium to long term for an immediate rush of pleasure. And that's all it is...
And it's so hard to fight that urge.
Today is one of those days. I didn't make the best choices. I know I should have chosen other things, but reason didn't win out today.
Tomorrow is another day. And at the break of dawn, I hope to be able to do things differently... And hopefully better.
Bem Hajam🍀
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It's good for the brain to indulge in a little pleasure, even if it might be bad in the long run. For me, a small beer and a nice plate of charcuterie are my guilty pleasure, not very healthy 😅 But I read recently that happiness is the key to a long life, not exercise (unless it makes you happy).
Have a great day