Jealous Much

in Reflectionsyesterday

I got some personal feedback from a colleague (who is also a friend) today, which kind of surprised me in a way. It is not that it was bad feedback, nor was it good, it was just more observational based on what they think might be a risk area. I think that the surprise is more in the way it was positioned, not about what the feedback actually was. They said that people might struggle with me because they are "intimidated" by me, where I am intelligent and well-spoken enough that they feel threatened - that they are jealous.

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Ha!

Why anyone would be jealous of me is beyond me.
Unless.... they aren't really paying attention.

My friend assumes that people either get offended by me, or want to overpower me in some way, and this is probably true, in some contexts. However, when I am facilitating or in a coaching session, I am different than if I am talking with friends. With friends like the one today, I am able to be more confrontational and more opinionated, because of the type of friends I have. However, there is one thing that I am terrible with.

I am too transparent.

In my world, my value is being able to facilitate open discussions, and as a result, it takes building trust, which often requires vulnerability of some kind. But as I am also looking to make impact, the best way is to put cards on the table, to discuss issues openly, whether positives or negatives, and have a proper conversation around it. Yet, I also know that this lack of strategy means that the same information is going to end up getting used against me in some way at some point, or there will be a cost

And it does.

It happens in many different ways, but there is nearly always someone that will file information away to bring up at a later point, even if they benefited from having that information originally. But as I said to my friend, if I change my style and provide information like many others do, I am no longer going to enjoy my job. It becomes cold, calculating and cutthroat. That is not the kind of person I want to be, so instead, I will wear the costs.

Ideally, being open and honest should be encouraged and rewarded, but we live in reality, not an ideal. The world and perhaps especially in the current era, is about maximization of the self, rather than the many. Information is a weapon, and comments are made to score points against another, even if it ends up costing both. The Twitter space is filled with point scoring for attention, even if no one ultimately cares. People talk about the one tweet that "went viral" as if because of it, their life changed somehow. But, look at what tweets get a lot of attention, and it is rarely anything of value - it is usually something that is either stupid and is spread for ridicule, or a snarky response that is spread because it supports a belief system. It would actually be interesting to discover how many of the shared tweets are actually beneficial to humanity, information that makes us better as a species.

I suspect not many.

I am not very optimistic for the future, and I think that many more are starting to recognize that just because it is the future, it doesn't mean it is going to be better than the past. It isn't hopeless of course, but things have to change quite radically in order for a pivot from the current path.

I just did a quick search on what are the benefits of jealousy, and other than as a motivator to improve, it seems that the majority of value comes from it being an indicator of what a person might value, and can be used as a reflective tool to acknowledge desires, and guide next steps. However, I reckon there are better ways to discover these things than attempting to bring others down and belittle them. And, this is where most jealousy ends up - in unhealthy behaviors and feelings that lead to more negative thoughts.

My friend might be right, or they might be wrong in their assumptions of jealousy, but I did appreciate that they spent the effort in what could have been an uncomfortable conversation to bring it onto the table. There should be more discussions like this in the world, and we actually booked a monthly session for the future, so we can reflect off each other, and discuss openly, transparently, and not have t worry about the strategic outcomes, or vectors of attack.

Taraz
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My wife and I were once told that we intimidate someone. I think for me it's just that I am not able to hide the fact that I don't like certain people very well. My wife is much better at it than me, so I am not sure what the reason would be they feel intimidated by her. Besides the fact that she isn't afraid to share her opinion.

I think for me it's just that I am not able to hide the fact that I don't like certain people very well.

:D
It seems people only like hearing opinions, when they support their own beliefs. We are all like this at times of course, but I do think that some are more "damaged" than others.

Yes, that is very true!

It is good to be open and transparent, but only with people you completely trust. Like I am open and transparent with my wife, but beyond that it is usually better not to disclose too much... I found it best to hide most of my big successes as nothing good comes out of people knowing about them. People do get jealous.

I found it best to hide most of my big successes

This is the interesting thing - I don't share this kind of stuff with most people at all! :D The things I am talking about sharing here is more around work topics for better results. I don't even get much benefit from any successes they have, other than the feeling I helped.

Strange that people would feel that they need to be jealous of you because you are trying to help others...

I prefer to be honest, unreserved and I demand that from those who know me. Now, criticising the culture, I don't think so, each country, each person with their own values. Nor do I impose my beliefs. Life is about tolerating and being tolerated. Remember my friend @tarazkp ‘we are not gold coins for everyone to like us...’.

and I demand that from those who know me

Isn't this an imposition of belief?

Life is about tolerating and being tolerated.

I am not so sure. Toleration isn't the same as acceptance. Toleration tends to fall apart when there is the chance to stop tolerating. I reckon a lot of the "racism is over in the US" is more that toleration took hold, rather than actual progress.

Isn't this an imposition of belief?

No, it is teaching with values. We can't confuse values with beliefs, can we…?

Demanding from others isn't teaching values, it is imposing will. What punishment do you impose if you feel if your demands aren't being met?

If you are a hard-worker person, took responsibilities during your teenage and hauled yourself up by bootstraps, they will be jealous of you. At least, this is what I have experienced in my life.

There is that too. I also sometimes wonder if there is some kind of issue because I am foreign. Foreigners here are meant to "integrate", but never do better than Finns.

I think it is great to be open and transparent and maybe this is the threat others have as most people are not like this and it shows you are stronger than most. I actually laugh at myself how I have changed over the years moving from being very diplomatic to the total opposite and being very open and honest. Maybe if everyone stopped playing games and facing problems open and honestly more things would get done instead of worrying about stepping on toes or how might someone react. We are heading backwards as a society due to a lack of open real communication.

I loyal to that mind state, we all need be around this kind of stuffs. If u want to win, walk with winners.

or want to overpower me in some way

I want to surpass or at least catch up to you in Hive holdings. So far that doesn't seem like a realistic goal but I am eternal fool optimist.

I've been told I'm intimidating. While being a blunt instrument probably contributes I'm pretty sure it's mostly my resting bitch face XD

I suppose statistically jealousy had to be good for something, from my limited observations it seems all it's good for is causing problems.