I've read a lot about Buddhism, Tao, all kinds of spiritual beliefs over the years. When you are younger, you are searching for meaning and trying to figure it all out. In hard times, maybe you didn't have enough understanding of the way of things to have a toolbox to navigate the high seas. It's also a fascinating study of the mind, of human behavior, of stories that define who we are.

But - and this might sound arrogant - maybe if you have a particular intelligence you don't need to put faith into something other than dirt and dung. Maybe we are closer to the truth of things as we aren't distracted by an afterlife or angels, gods and demons, heaven and hell and the layers in between. Maybe it's enough for us to know we are beholden to the same laws of entropy as the rest of the universe. Be kind, die. Why do we need more? It's a fucking miracle we are breathing, right here, right now.