If you somehow found me alone, I would probably be engaged in some form of personal-play, in my own space, in my own time, with nothing but the Chinese New Year constantly kickin off in my head.
A young colleague at work had asked me why this was....and what was wrong with me...my response?
From an early age i was an eccentric soul. As a baby i never cried nor fussed as i was too busy watching (probably watching that milk bottle). Play is natural to me thanks to an imaginative mind fueled by small doses of mischief. But listen here grasshoppa when i tell you that this playful instinct did lose it's way, play becoming selfishness; becoming jealousy, becoming brazen, becoming despicable. From this the young me developed a violent-temper that lasted right up until my mid 20s.
However dark the Play became, the trait lead me to find the Stage as a sleight-of-hand card magician; it gave me a tool to temper my anger, giving me a reason to soothe my pains.
My young colleague asked why am i this way? What she was really asking was "Why are you not bored?"; in deeper honest what i think she was trying to express was "How do you find all this enjoyable?"
I couldn't find a way to explain to her what the Blues is (laughing to keep from crying)...so i introduced her to Helen Keller instead, specifically her book...
“We have seen that the world’s philosophers—the Sayers of the Word—were optimists; so also are the men of action and achievement—the Doers of the Word.”
(Young) Grasshoppa you too will find beauty in this world marred by despicable evil. You may travel long distances, travel so far, so wide, that you end up in a place where no soul knows your name. You may forget your origins and probably re-write your story many times over. You may observe yourself in the mirror and not recognise who it is that looks back. Seems to me man that tormented souls like you and i are always pickin up the pieces where we left off.
I cannot tell you what heart-wounds you will experience this life, but i can tell it'll fuck you up royally. So be it! Get fucked up! Because once you end up rock bottom your bright, vibrant, uncommon, magical, absolutely fckin tremendous spirit will find a way so that you too can bring laughter to this world.
So that no more tears need fall.
▶️ 3Speak
Everything is play. Whatever you do as well and as quickly as possible becomes a challenge, and it's fun to challenged yourself, to set a personal best, or just to know you did stuff well and fast. I never had any fun dragging ass and moping about.
Thanks!