I knew your face had gone into the frowny WHAT???? That's why I said "Don't frown" part way through it. LOL !
Ye gods !... for sure. How did I get to this place? I don't have the answer for that, but obviously it certain wasn't a plan !
When I'm working, I know what I should be doing and I am very steady, do a good job and give more than the minimum required.
I would like to be doing something more involved... with something. I would like to be doing something valid and helpful.... to someone. I would like to be doing something that makes me feel like I have purpose......
But.... what is that ?? I've been rolling it around in my noggin for a while now, but the answer hasn't stepped forward.
I know if I don't know what I should be doing, then I should just be doing SOMETHING while I am figuring it out, but that is much harder to do than it is to type.
I will say though, I do NOTHING valid very well. I could be considered a PRO at it about now.
Haha, yes you know me well.
I guess some just have a knack for it and others do not; it doesn't mean the latter have bad lives or anything, just probably different to what they could have if they did some goal-setting and planning. It's a powerful tool, but not the only one a person needs to create a fulfilling life.
My life is definitely not bad, there are so many things about it I am thankful for. It could be better in certain aspects though, if I would just choose a direction and pursue it.
Being thankful, appreciating what we have rather than always looking and thinking towards what we do not, is a great way to go.
How's the new/changed job situation going?
It's absolutely wonderful !
I was so burned out on the phone part of my job that is "nearly" no longer part of it now. The 5 of us that jumped into this new department got an ugly surprise when within the first week, we were asked to help cover those same phones we thought we left behind, for a couple hours here and there. We were ALL extremely unhappy about it and fortunately, we have all independently voiced that to our supervisor. Evidently she pushed that up and our new manager had a meeting with us earlier this week to assure us it would not be ongoing after a little more time (although she couldn't give us a date in stone) Once we left the other department, they no longer had enough people to cover certain very busy hours, so... they asked our new management to "borrow" us for bits of time. Our new management was trying to work together with the old department, not realizing the backlash it would cause with us. She called us their elite ..ha ha... and they don't really want any of us looking to jump again to get away from the phones. Truly it has only been a few hours here and there, but I detest the phones so bad (and obviously I'm not the only one)... .that I will be happiest when I never have to answer them again.
With that OVER explanation ..... I will also say that I don't dread the workdays anymore.... or the end of the weekends (which is about to happen now) or working when I should be retired already.... and that is all new for me. I'm slowly starting to heal from the burn out.
I bet that phone scenario came as somewhat as a shock but it seems solidarity has won the day and you'll be free of it soon. Overall it seems to have been a good move and over time I think the benefits will consolidate.