I see myself as an average when my life experiences have all been bizarre.

Pretext

Everyone has those days when they think of something worth writing down on a piece of paper or notebook. But I never really had once thought about writing those thoughts on paper or my notebooks before since I used to just forget them before, but after realizing I could never really remember what I've thought of before, then I decided to have my phone to do it's part. Kind of weird as well since I'm still attending school and I have all the paper in the world(enough for writing a phrase or a couple of sentences down) to write these thoughts in my head that I thought would be life-changing (,,•o•,,)

Anyhow, this is going to be a compilation of the general thoughts I had during one of the darkest periods in my life since I had encountered quite a formidable amount of turmoil during this stage of my life that I responded to horribly and some of these I really did think about deeply to distract me from the situations I wanted to escape from.

Another thing to point out is that currently I find reading these as corny, cringe or just straight up embarrassing which I find to be a good sign since it's a sign of growth... or at least that's what my close friends said. :P

The Ideas...

This idea stemmed from how I think people view the world to be as is. And that we think that we can experience our preconceived ideas of perfection. But no, we can instead use reason to conceptualize it. But as human beings, it's in our nature to be imperfect.

As in short, both personally and as a species, we are imperfectly perfect. And this an apply to all aspects to our world view. The self, love, happiness, and all the more to it. There's no perfect solution to all of this, it's a matter of continuous improvement, since perfection itself is a limit.

Simply put, I am everything I know and don't know about myself consciously, yet compared to the ever so expansion of the cosmos. I'm nothing compared to it.

A contradictory statement to Individualism. And that the more distinct we are to each other. You could say we are all distinctly the same.

In mathematics, it would be if x is equal to y and if y is equal to z and all the other 26 letters of the alphabet having the same value...haha

Babies, usually cry a lot. Demands quite the amount of attention. Quite like a narcissist to me if I'm being honest. But as they grow up... yeah you know the rest.

I actually used this concept for one of my homework from school and...

“Humans only have a limit to their freedom, because we are a slave to something. Whether it be our needs(food, water, clothing, etc.), to our most abstract desires that transcends the objective reality we live.”

I’ve been hungry for one point in my life for 2 days yet I’ve been full for an entire day from eating too much. I’ve been thirsty for half a day yet I’ve also almost drowned myself from drinking too much. And to my desires, I’ve always wanted to be stronger and better than who I was yesterday yet I’ve also had those times where I thought these aspirations were just futile.

And as my mind wanders on and on about this idea. I thought of Death as the true freedom I believe in which we are free from ourselves but only then will we never have the agency to live our enslaved life. I interpret life as when we are a bird in an invisible cage locked up in invisible chains, doing what we can do, and initially revolting against it until we succumb to accept it.

Concluding Words

I'm quite alienated from these views, though they do have their strong points. Ultimately, I'm quite sure the intentions of mine from these before were quite grotesque to say the least. Though, I can't sugarcoat it enough for me to be able to say that I do still agree with the inherent points I've given to these remarks.

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Screenshots from my smartphone

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Thank you for reading!