My struggle is Writing _ (Ladies contest #33)

Hello Ladies of Hive

How was your day?
I hope you are having a wonderful and productive day.

This is my entry for Ladies of Hive Community Contest #33 with topic below:

What is the one hobby or pastime that you always wanted to do, but never pursued? What has prevented  you from trying it?

My dream is to become a writer! I really love reading and having the ability to write a book would be amazing.

The thing that I struggle with is I don’t know where to start. The articles I have posted previously on forums have had a slightly negative effect on me they are saying things like: what style of writing do you call this? Why is your grammar off when I accidentally spell a word wrong and sometime they have said it’s not worth it and it’s uncivilised. I know people on internet say things to get reactions sometimes but I take the comments very seriously I see these messages everyday and I mean every day.

You know what, Everyone is entitled to their opinion. The thing that worries me though is the fact I don’t think I have the talent to be a great writer and not worthy of writing the articles these people would enjoy. This has effected me because all I’ve wanted to do in terms of writing is to make contact people can enjoy.

The most painful thing is when I know how helpless I am.

But after all, I still want to pick up the pen and fight. In a way as much as I would love people to like my stories I know deep down I need to do this to overcome the biggest barrier which is my own low self-esteem. If I do not believe in myself who will? And how will I ever portray confidence to others?
As the saying goes the show must go on so yes I do open my computer yes I open word and I start typing.

Day one... What do I write about? Well I end up writing about the wind blowing through my hair while gently touching the swaying leaves..
Day two... nothing special comes to mind so why not write about the birds flying above me freely in the sky!

This is how I’m doing it at the moment a simple 20 words per day is all I can muster. It’s not a lot but it’s all I got in order to relieve my depression this and outdoor activity is what is helping me fight this problem.

But after all this I still haven’t had the courage to post my articles in the community again. I was apprehensive about my talent and afraid to accept the fact that I was terrible at writing.

However, one day a friend of mine introduced me to this blog community and I was interested so I joined 1 month ago with the optimism that maybe I’ve found my place to express my joy for writing. I have shared some of my stories here and the amount of love the community has given back so far it has really help with my self esteem so for this I am so grateful. I blog everyday about different things and that’s what I like doing just expressing my takes on the world on different subjects and cultures essentially I love it all!

I just want to continue to blog here and try to improve my writing skills all the time while Making others happy when reading these blogs.

If one day my articles are written into book I hope you guys would check it out. As useless as I am today, I know that I can be successful and achieve what I want because I am using this wonderful community as a base to express and practise my passion. I will write whenever/wherever I can at any age. I will not stop.

The thing that makes me happiest is writing, so I will write whenever I can, anywhere, and at any age.

BE PATIENT WITH YOUR WORST ENEMY ( YOURSELF)

Much love everyone ❤️❤️❤️