IT WILL HAPPEN

There are a number of things I would like to achieve this year. I wrote about some of them in my previous posts but would be highlighting one major in this post. I'm highlighting it not just because of its importance but because of how much it would affect my life. Sometimes I think about it, and I get scared. I don't know how to describe this kind of fear, but it isn't a bad one, it's a more positive and curious one that for the first time imagining how my life would change isn't enough. I look forward to it, but yet can not comprehend the change it would bring to me. Another reason I am a little scared is that even though I'm sure about what I want to do, I can't help but wonder how things will be when they change. I can't help but wonder how my life would be when I am no longer feeling all these excitements and emotions I am feeling now.

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My biggest plan this year is to finally tie the knot with the love of my life, and when I think about it, I know it's what I want and have no second thoughts about it. But sometimes I still can't help but try to imagine if it's all real, especially when I remember my past failed relationships and the toll they took on me. Getting up wasn't easy, and even though I say every disappointment is a blessing and I will get up no matter how much I fall, I just pray I don't have another fall out again because that shit ain't easy. It's not easy especially because society sees men as a symbol of strength and thus does not allow them to show emotions, so when we get hurt we find other ways to deal with our emotions even when we just want to lay on the floor and cry.

I really pray I don't have to go through that this year, it hasn't been easy in the past years and I hope I have finally found the one for me. Okay I am certain about it, and I hope I'm not just carried away by all the love and excitement. That is why my partner and I agreed not to rush things up but give ourselves time to build and grow this year keeping in mind that plan for the year. We don't want to get carried away by all the excitement and all so we will take it slow and learn to love each other the most before we finally tie the knot. But the main thing is that it is all happening this year.

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