You are not alone in dealing with unchecked anxiety, constant worries, and or feelings of helplessness that often lead to depression. I've battled that demon for most of my life, we tend to grasp at things that only give us a temporary relief.
I glad I have my siblings to lean on and some friends here and those off-line I could confide in as well.
I understand that finding true friends we trust takes time and often risks.
I hope you can overcome some of those barriers that keep you from a fuller life @noemilunastorta and bloom as the person you are meant to be.❤️🙏