Reality

So sometimes it gets hard,
Sometimes it gets easy,
Sometimes we just want to be seen as the perfect person,
Other times we act like all is fine.

All these are still part of life struggles as it gets to be different in almost everyone's life too,

We try as much as possible to get the right job,
Best school,
Good homes,
And so much more,

In the end alot of things comes to play when reality sets in too.

Just want to say a little experience i had about starting somethings i thought was going to be easy and at the end it felt like i was draining myself too.

Some months ago i decided to start just some new habits of reading,
Exercise,
Eating early,
And sleeping early.

*This things might sound very easy to do,
But the issues here starts with being consistent in doing them for atleast 3months,

I was supposed to spend 3hours daily for reading,
30mins for exercises,
Eating early and avoiding heavy meals once its past 6pm.

And the final part is sleeping after or 30mins past 9pm.
At first i was so free with the reading part that i did that part perfectly for one week,
I noticed at a time i started feeling less intrested or less bothered, and some times i just feel like doing other stuffs or giving myself excuses instead of actually Carrying out the readings i was meant to do.

As for the Exercise part,
I only tried for 3days and procastination entered.
I chose to give myself hopes of doing it later each time that i am supposed to attempt it.
And just like that i noticed i was loosing interesting in it , because i feel i wasn't strong enough ,
somedays,
And other days i might just try some squats and it wont even last 30secs and I will be already tired of it .
Just like that i declined in the exercise part.

For eating early ,it actually worked for like a month before things in my country changed,
Situation of things got hard,
Food and price's of things got expensive and i was being forced to eat anything i can get my hands on to afford too .
So there are days i might not even eat while there are days i will end up eating extremely late too .
It was just something that was out of control because of finances and so many other issues too.

Well it came down to the last one which is about sleeping early, and that was the one i was able to do perfectly fine for like 3months too ,
I was just giving myself timer on when and how to sleep ,
The rainy weather helped alot too because almost every night it rained and it was much easy to sleep off while it rained at night.

/This is just to let you know that most times humans just want comfort and would be happy to get it without stress too..
No one really likes the work that stresses them, rather life made us all to always look forward for more stress after each rest for us to be able to archive higher goals too/.