I can truly understand your loss @ninahaskin, you and your brother have a very strong resemblance too. I lost my Roommate and best friend for more than 20 years just this Monday to Cancer. The pain feels overwhelming at this time and the struggle against depression and grief is keep on a hairs width balance by a veil of composure and sheer strength. Eventually, the pain will diminish as I recall our best memorable times. She said, "I'll be waiting for you." ✝️