Your words will live on long after you are gone.
Some of them in my duffelbag wherever I go.
What you described as symptoms sounded like a malaria flashback to me.
Heavy doses of cbd might help.
Or, RSO.
Nobody gets out alive.
The lucky ones are missed.
I plan to go in my sleep, or off a cliff on a bike, w/e.
Or quinine, why didn't I think of that. I haven't had a malaria episode since I quit drinking 33 years ago.
As long as I don't go feeling like shit. Thanks for your kind words!
I'm not a doctor, but I've read a lot of books while staying in some generic holiday inn expresses,...an ivory tower wasn't in the cards this time around.
I'm ok with that.
I hope the other side is peaceful for you, but if it ain't, give 'em hell.
I've learned in 75 years that ivory towers aren't all they're cracked up to be. Ultimately we're all judged not by what we accrued, but by what we gave away. Rousseau once wrote something to the effect that we can't get rich to help other people because what it takes to get rich changes us in a most egregious manner.
The other side will be what it is... Improvise, adapt and overcome.