Thanks Fiona.

To be honest it gets to me if I think about it too much. The trick is to figure out some type of plan of action like this when the frustration boils over and then stick to it while trying not to fixate on whether it is actually helping. Stress kicks all gut conditions into overdrive and after trying to live with, and figure out, this stuff for over 4 years... its stressful even hoping that something might (or might not) work.

I'll never give up though. Just gotta keep a sensible perspective and keep meditating etc.

Best wishes for the new year.
Take care
Rowan