Glad some of it spoke to you.

Being far away, if I didn't do that, I think I would fall into darkness long ago.

This actually was a large part of my life for a long time. My family is spread all over and not close enough to anyone that I could just go visit for a day or two. Just needed to find other ways of coping with this. Tons of phone calls (obviously) but connecting with others not just in my area but online too. Helps make the world not seem so huge and distant.