You have told me the story of this incident before. You had PTSD. That's why you had the break before getting back.
I loved that mum kept encouraging you and gave you time. There is also something to learn in that.
Also learning from our past and having the courage to face the future is paramount.
PTSD is a clinical condition. Nope, I didn't have that. Just trauma and fear response.
And yes. What will we do without our mothers, you know.