That's some expository!!
As a guy, I figured a lot of persons had their personal opinion on what hairstyle, swag style, and what organisation would suit me. Been so cautious about my looks at the time, I got more confused on what I looked best on. So I stepped up snd became my beholder as you did. Yeah sure, "I am the beholder, I've beheld myself with my eyes and I'm just perfect without dem opinion"