I feel you on the decisions. It wasn't that long ago I finally found the stability and self trust to make decisions and stick to them. Often it kept me from doing anything at all because I simply got stuck. Struggled for a long time, and still do sometimes. I think it comes from having an open mind, being able to see the many options and potential outcomes. Maybe from wanting them all, trying to find some sense of control in spite (or because) of there really not being much we can control outside our own actions.
It can also come from difficult experiences of the past, complex ptsd type stuff. But sometimes a scumbucket is a scumbucket and a good man, simultaneously. Saints are fiction. Bonus points for your self-awareness, too.
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Yes, I think so too. I don't think it's much of a matter of trauma for me, or at least not that I'm aware of at the time. But I try to reassess periodically and change my mind if needs be. Nothing more dangerous than a closed mind. Thanks you for this lovely comment. :)
Aw, glad it came across as lovely! I'm always worried that my attempts at suggesting self-compassion will come off as preachy.