Sleep was for rest but now sleep has become a burden for me. a burden that doesn’t grant me the rest I want but uses my mind in thinking. I could minimize thinking when my eyes were closed but it now seems my mind and heart keep me awake thinking about that soul. I don’t know how to forget but I can only hope I get a cure to this.
An angel walked across me that I couldn’t take my eyes off. She flows through the veins of my heart and captured in the lens in the retina of my eyes keeps displaying her like a projector. Every activity keeps printing her face out. I don't know but I wish this could be all I wished for. When I try moving on, my heart has its way of telling me she affects me. What am I doing?
Love has always been amazing to me. I never saw the stress part. Is this meant to pull me towards her, is this meant to tell me that she is that rib I lost during creation, or it is meant to let me know that she is the one to complete me, or she is the one to let me know what love is? I don’t even know what to say.
She is an angel. A human with all charisma. A human I will call love. A human who possesses all that can make a worry vanish. A woman who will stand in and smile to brighten each day for you. A woman to support you like a pillar, pamper you like a baby, and yet love you like you are her mother. A golden heart is what I see. Life has shown me the variables of pain. Looking at her, I see there is at least a particle in life that still stands in to make life worth living.
This is the love I have always wished for. A love that won’t make my worries vanish but give me a reason to see beyond them to be happy. A love that won’t make me successful but a love that will keep me on my toes to keep working hard to make my family happy. A love that won't just lay dormant in my heart but a love that will empower and energize me to show the world that there is always a reason to live. Maybe she is the one. what if she isn’t? There is only one way to know. Let’s do the talking now, I guess. I need a stable mind and my heart back.