Memoir Monday #32 | How do I perceive the world from my past and present experiences?

Hello friends of the #SilverBloggers community, today I am very happy to participate in the Memoir Monday #32 answering the question of our colleague @ericvancewalton: How has your worldview evolved over time? This question resonates a lot in my mind especially in these last few days that have been a roulette of multiple emotions, where I have seen such devastating news as I have also felt that the world needs to learn to be more empathetic and offer a helping hand or an ear to listen to what the other feels and needs to let out because it is killing their life and their way of seeing life.

In my childhood I was fortunate to have very loving and protective siblings even though I am the middle child, I was always surrounded by people who taught me that I should be a respectful person, responsible for my own actions and be empathetic to others, I was always that little girl who wanted to understand the situations of others and the feelings of my close peers and family. Being a highly empathetic and sensitive person led me to end up very disappointed in the people I have come across in my life who mostly sadly only see what is seen on the outside but did not take the time to really get to know me and were not interested in doing so, so I was always very lonely, but very attentive to the few classmates with whom I felt comfortable.

Growing up I realized that not all people had been raised the same way I was, they would not feel the same empathy or respect for my feelings or way of being, they would not respect my words or my actions. I did not have a father figure present so I always saw life a little bittersweet where I felt that in the end all the people who knew me would abandon me as my father did, when I talk about abandonment I mean that there was never a real interest in wanting to know me, to take care of me, to want to know how I was or what I was doing in my day to day life, he called sporadically, there were almost never visits and much less love was felt on his part.

All this experience made me grow up seeing the world a little gray, always looking for in others what I lacked, the shortcomings I had and the abandonment was repeated more and more as a sign that I had to learn to live with what I got in this life and to deal with the pain of what could not be. So I see the world pretty bad, especially now, people do not feel any remorse or feeling towards the power of their words and actions and how they can penetrate deep inside any human being, but especially those of us who come hurt from a life full of emptiness and moments where we wished we were different to fit into what we believe is right for society.

I know that in the world there are people who are light, who really feel that all human beings are worthwhile and that regardless of race, age, sex, culture or religion there can be a path full of respect and learning about others without judging each other as we usually do because I have done it too, I am not perfect and I have been on both sides. But I feel bad things are happening more often nowadays, you can't even get to trust people who carry your same blood let alone strangers. Maybe I have to work on trusting others, on knowing that they can hurt me but I decide whether to stay in that vicious circle of pain and sadness or to accept myself and know that I am the only person who can rescue me even though at times it is so hard to just breathe.

I would like the new generation to have the opportunity to find a kinder world, where we can all be ourselves, where it doesn't matter if you come from a family with money or not, if you have a degree or not, if you decide to be happy in your own way even if for the rest this is not what they see as normal, I would like children to be listened to, embraced, to know that there are people who love them and that they are beings with infinite qualities, that they should not be compared to anyone and that they should not be afraid to raise their voices when they feel that they are living a situation that generates discomfort to the point of thinking that life is not worth living. Hopefully we can all at some point understand that life is a wheel, if you do good things sooner or later that is what you will receive and if you do bad things then at some point the consequences will come and you will have to face them.

All the text is my own.

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