Believe me I can imagine it but I also want to live it and have it

Me encantaria decirte tantas cosas que llevo dentro de mi cabeza, tantos pensamientos en los que me gustaria expresar lo bien que me hace tener una conversacion, nuestra conversacion, me encantaria nublarte el pensamiento de mis palabras y hacerte sentir de nuevo que somos parte de un solo sentimiento, amaria cada momento en el que dejamos que el tiempo transcurra y dejarnos llevar por lo unico que tengamos que decir en ese preciso instante, dejar la huella en nuestras sonrisas, que nuestros gestos sean lo que importe en ese momento, donde tu sonrisa y el firmamento sellen el pacto de la confidencialidad que existiria entre nosotros dos.

I would love to tell you so many things that I carry inside my head, so many thoughts in which I would like to express how good it makes me have a conversation, our conversation, I would love to cloud you the thought of my words and make you feel again that we are part of a single feeling, I would love every moment in which we let time pass and let ourselves be carried away by the only thing we have to say at that precise moment, to leave the trace in our smiles, that our gestures are what matters at that moment, where your smile and the sky seal the pact of confidentiality that would exist between the two of us.

Como poder dejar de imaginar tantos escenarios en donde no existe el tiempo que imagino a tu lado, tal vez el masoquismo de saber que ya ese tiempo no me pertenece a mi es lo que me sigue manteniendo arraigado a no desconectarme del todo de ti, tal vez a diferencia de tu entorno no te exijo nada, no te pido nada mas que compartas conmigo historias, historias que se hacen tan entretenidas en el tiempo, historias que nos ayudan a sobre llevar tantas cosas, que nos hacen imaginarnos un mundo perfecto, tu en el tuyo y yo en el mio, no se si daria muchas cosas para que nuestros destinos vuelvan a encontrarse, pero puedes tener la certeza de que si vuelve a unirnos no me opondré a verte con los mismos ojos con los que te llevo mirando tanto tiempo.

How can I stop imagining so many scenarios where the time I imagine next to you does not exist, maybe the masochism of knowing that this time does not belong to me is what keeps me rooted to not disconnect completely from you, maybe unlike your environment I do not demand anything, I do not ask you anything but to share stories with me, stories that become so entertaining in time, stories that help us to overcome so many things, that make us imagine a perfect world, you in yours and me in mine, I don't know if I would give a lot of things for our destinies to meet again, but you can be sure that if you bring us together again I won't oppose to see you with the same eyes with which I've been looking at you for so long.

Existe la magia en tu mirar, existe la chispa en tu sonrisa que no me deja pensar con claridad cuando sé de ti, no me quedo ciego pero tampoco existe el tiempo en esos instantes que nos escapamos para ser solo tu y yo. Maldita distancia que no es solo fisica, maldita distancia sentimental de no poder expresar todo lo que se lleva por dentro, solo me queda admirar los momentos que pasamos juntos, escapados, lo odio, odio no tenerte como quiero, odio el hecho de no ser yo a quien miras con los ojos con los que me mirabas hace tiempo atrás, no lo puedo negar, lo odio como odio los momentos que se me hacen tan cortos a tu lado, simplemente es el sentimiento de querer estar, no estar a su vez, alejarme pero leerte con el mayor placer del mundo, lo odio.

There is magic in your look, there is the spark in your smile that doesn't let me think clearly when I know about you, I don't go blind but neither does time exist in those moments that we escape to be just you and me. Damn distance that is not only physical, damn sentimental distance of not being able to express all that is carried inside, I can only admire the moments we spend together, escaped, I hate it, I hate not having you as I want, I hate the fact of not being me who you look at with the eyes with which you looked at me long ago, I can not deny it, I hate it as I hate the moments that are so short by your side, it is simply the feeling of wanting to be, not to be in turn, to move away but read you with the greatest pleasure in the world, I hate it.

Declarame tu amor indirectamente, dime que te encanta lo que hacemos, dimelo sin decirlo con palabras, sigue dejando a mi imaginacion que sientes lo mismo que yo siento, aunque este prohibido, sigue teniendo la iniciativa de decirme con acciones que amas estar a mi lado y que sigo siendo quien te hace sentir como nadie mas lo ha podido hacer, incrementa mis ganas de verte y solo comerte con la mirada, incitame a devorar tus pensamientos de la manera que tu quieras que lo haga, solo pidemelo, se que lo haras porque se que lo sientes, se que ese "algo" no se ha ido del todo y quiero creer que sigue ahi, tu risa me lo dice, tu mirada me lo dice, tus gestos te delatan demasiado y quiero sentirlos, no se por cuanto tiempo, pero ahi estan, enloqueciendome todo el tiempo que te da la gana, no pares de hacer por favor, amo el acercamiento descarado en donde me asomas tu deseo por acercarte un poco mas de lo debido, no te lo voy a prohibir, solo tu sabes que tienes el permiso de hacer conmigo lo que desees, tienes el poder, te lo ganaste, lo mas increible de todo esto, es que aun te lo sigues ganando.

Declare me your love indirectly, tell me that you love what we do, tell me without saying it with words, keep letting my imagination that you feel the same way I feel, even if it is forbidden, keep taking the initiative to tell me with actions that you love being by my side and that I am still the one who makes you feel like no one else has been able to do, increase my desire to see you and just eat you with my eyes, incite me to devour your thoughts the way you want me to do it, just ask me, I know you will do it because I know you feel it, I know that "something" is not completely gone and I want to believe that it's still there, your laugh tells me so, your look tells me so, your gestures give you away too much and I want to feel them, I don't know for how long, but they are there, driving me crazy as long as you want, please don't stop, I love the shameless approach where you show me your desire to get a little closer than I should, I will not forbid you, only you know that you have the permission to do with me what you want, you have the power, you earned it, the most incredible thing about all this, is that you are still earning it.

No existen excusas entre nosotros, somos almas libres, que probablemente sigan destinadas a llegar a donde solo las almas gemelas se unen, tal vez la separacion fue inminente para construir en el tiempo las bases mas solidas y volvernos a unir, quien lo sabe, dicen que los amores que llegan y se quedan en tu corazon pues nunca se olvidan, y yo... no te he olvidado, pero tambien es un hecho para mi que tu aun tampoco me olvidas, sino no estuvieras aqui, aqui conmigo como lo estas ¿Puedes imaginarlo? unir nuestras almas de nuevo con todo lo que hemos aprendido en este proceso llamado vida, creer que no se pudo pero fuimos insistentes con el destino hasta que nos cumpla el deseo de pertenecernos como siempre lo fuimos. Tal vez ocurra, tal vez no, tal vez solo sean fantasias de alguien que no te supera facilmente y solo le de vueltas a la situacion para no afrontar la realidad, independientemente, todo es excitante de vivirlo.

There are no excuses between us, we are free souls, probably still destined to reach where only soul mates unite, maybe the separation was imminent to build in time the most solid bases and unite us again, who knows, they say that the loves that come and stay in your heart are never forgotten, and I? I haven't forgotten you, but it is also a fact for me that you still haven't forgotten me either, otherwise you wouldn't be here, here with me as you are. Can you imagine it? to unite our souls again with all that we have learned in this process called life, to believe that we couldn't but we were insistent with destiny until it fulfills our desire to belong to each other as we always were. Maybe it will happen, maybe it won't, maybe they are just fantasies of someone who doesn't get over you easily and only turns the situation around so as not to face reality, regardless, everything is exciting to live it.