Ok, then. You're definitely in charge, and if you say stop we stop. [sigh]
"* I did learn important and useful insights*"
That's nice. I'm not clear how they changed anything for you, or how to follow up, but that's moot now, isn't it?
"* I feel like you are writing on the fly, typing out whatever is coming into your head at that moment.*"
lol. I'm fast, but does this mean that there's no deep consideration underlying my perspectives?
"When I express my needs, I feel a resistance from you. Maybe this happens because our goals and methodologies are out of sync. For a while now I have not been able to follow your line of thinking, and when I express my doubts, I do not get answers that help me."
Hmmm. Isn't this self-defeating? I asked you to examine your intentions and your actions.
Perhaps you're projecting this notion of resistance? Aren't you resisting my stated purposes?
I told you that analyzing my intentions and my actions is not what I want to discuss. You've been doing whatever you like, and that got us here.
"I feel your words as an angry professor"
Well, I haven't been angry. I'm frustrated and sad.
"I don't always feel comfortable answering the questions you pose in response to my questions. This is because I feel an underlying tone in your return questions that screams (in my head), how can you not get it?!"
That's all you, Tigrilla. I think (strongly suspect!) that you got it, but you don't want to deal with it. It's very clear to me that you do what you like, and that anything that you feel uncomfortable about (due to your already-beliefs) is questioned and then rejected.
I could be mistaken, but it doesn't matter now, right?
You're doing what's important to you. Learning what I've learned is out of the question, unless it's more important than what you've been doing. When you claimed that you wanted to learn philosophy with me, that (clearly!) wasn't as important as what you've been doing.
adios
"I still feel like there is more to learn, but not without a clear, mutually agreed-upon hypothesis and some clarity around method, something which from your last message it feels like you would not like to do. "
Tigrilla, what I like or want is irrelevant. I'll do whatever I can to support people in learning, but only if they're openly inquiring. I'm not getting that from you now - you're out the back door...I think...
Do you want to pretend that this is empirical science? Is there a testable hypothesis here? Did you intend to suggest one?
"It would probably be best to close here."
Whatever's most important to you is what we'll do. I have no intention of imposing anything.
It is statements like this one:
Right after statements like this:
that lead me to the state I feel right now.
Obviously, I don't know what "openly inquiring" means to you. Asking for help is met with responses like "self-defeating", "you don't want to deal with it", and "that (clearly!) wasn't as important as what you've been doing".
The more I ask for help and direction, the more I hear that I am doing it wrong.
I misspoke; I apologize. I regret my mistake.
I wrote that your emotions are irrelevant to others.
That's not what I meant. I failed at editing properly.
That was incorrect (obviously). I care about what you feel.
I meant that they're most important to you, and that I don't know what your feelings are until you tell me. Unless I can predict what you'll feel, I can't deal with them before I hear about them.
I can't always predict what people will feel. Is that my fault? Is it a failing?
I understand that my feelings are less important to me than to others; I do my best to make my feelings irrelevant because they sometimes interfere with clear thinking and effective action. Of course I still have them...
I'm not perfect. Please forgive my error.
[shame]
btw
imo
If someone relies on intuition in order to decide what to think then it will be impossible for that person to do philosophy. Philosophy is anti-intuitive; it requires complete trust in reason and a willingness to go outside the boundaries of what one understands.
Thanks again for our conversation, Tigrilla.