Hey @onetree. I am sorry to read that you are going through a hard time in your life. Maybe this "time" is longer than you've expected it to be, but I am quite sure it will not last that much and better days are coming for you and your family. Seeking help even here on Steemit is the right thing to do. Many times we get help from complete strangers rather from our friends and family. Keep your head up and I am sure you will reach your goals :)