I have faith in you @calaber24p to discover what's possible and right for you and how best to find your balance. I applaud your courage to attempt a weaning off medication and, if it turns out that you need to return to it, then so be it but it's good to try I believe. I have 3 good friends who have succeeded in getting off of anti-depressants and thriving and 1 who had to return. It's different for everyone.