I have been harboring in a place of fear, my mind has been plagued with darkness and this mind is not a place I recognize. I have spent countless hours doing yoga and meditating fear and anxiety out of my life but my mind has been so distraught these past few years I haven’t been able to stand my own company in silence for more than a few minutes. Fear had a hold on my being and has tainted some beautiful scenarios.

Yesterday, while in a yoga class the last 5mins were dedicated to meditation, finding peace is something I haven’t been able to attain for long without fear creeping in while in meditation, but I finally had a break through. I found a way to turn what I was having fear about into a euphoric meditative experience, one which I thought I had lost for good.

Accepting and surrendering to things as they are is a powerful experience. Letting go of control, stop fighting and just allowing things to be and turning the thoughts towards healing, a strong energy at work to repair and transition to a healthier state of being.

Perhaps I should recognize this as a cycle, I climbed out of despair and darkness once before with the help of mindfulness, it was a tremendous part of my growth and now the cycle of growth is coming back around and pressuring me to tap into source once again and heal myself, it wears a different face but the solution remains the same.

After having that experience of connection, grounding and acceptance I know what needs to be done and I can tap back into it find peace and release my fears, I am powerful.