I want to thank you for posting about this topic. I have had a similar experience in my life. I was put on antidepressants about 5 years ago for panic attacks and anxiety. I changed medication every few months until I started taking Lexapro a pretty common SSRI.

Over the last 4 months I have been working on getting off the medication. It takes a really long time just to adjust to half the dose you took before. With dizziness, nausea, vomiting, brain zaps as you put it and increase of anxiety over all.

A big thing I want to say is that it isn't wrong or shameful to be on medication and if you get off of it there is no shame in going back on it if you need to.