Now most people have been anxious about an event in their lives, a test at school or any important event that is upcoming, it's normal to be worried or scared.
What happens when everything makes you anxious?
Last Thursday I had to pick up my Mother in law from our local airport, it was raining and I had to take the motorway. I was terrified the entire journey there and back with a racing heart and sweating like you wouldn't believe. By the time I got home I was exhausted and wiped out.
Saturday morning, I totally panicked over our Halloween party, I had the shakes and racing heart as things wern't ready. I couldn't cancel as our kids were excited, the stress carried on all day and I got totally drunk last night and don't remember the later stages of the night.
Today I woke up still anxious and scared and with the shakes I avoided going out, being around people as much as possible. I'm scared of things I don't know I'm even thinking about and restless while trying to avoid doing anything as I try to get through the day until I can have a drink to relax.
The depression was bad, the lack of energy didn't help but I was getting on the up on both until anxiety decided to throw it's hat into the ring. It's a fact that when mental health turns up it doesn't arrive alone but attacks you in a pack. Medication takes a while to kick in, drinking is an easy fix. I know it won't help long term but for many drink or drugs is a short term fix to get them through the end of the day.
I'm worried and restless about everything, I can't focus properly and tied with my depression it's not a good thing. I understand mental health more than most as I'm a carer to my wife so I've learnt all I can to do that job, I know that at 2 weeks into a course of anti depressants things can get difficult with thoughts of self harm or suicide. I'm not in that place but I'm watching my thoughts, this is probably adding to my anxiety as I'm worried for myself as well as for my wife and kids.
I'm not coping well but I'm coping and getting through each day.
Hang in there. I can relate with the depression and anxiety. Try and do something mentally challenging. It might be a challenge but can help put those anxieties further down in your mind.
You know that in the world there are a millions of people like you ?
Stop and restart slowly to live your life, learn to say 'No'.
Do you remember what is your Talent? If you don't , only remember what kind of things always do without effort and all people ask you.
Please do not be affraid and make change in your life, ask for help to your family to do that. And celebrate together all night with a cup of wine.
Follow my example 😉
I write post about flowers, sunsets, skys.... always too much light and colors with a meditation quote by myself, improve myself everyday and in life I trust.
Good luck.
Please choose actions or activities that will contribute positively to your life and well-being than the ones that don't. You already recognized that alcohol and meds are short term fix. Pay attention that these short term fixes don't linger for a long time - because it will turn into an addiction and your life scan spiral in a dangerous direction. I don't know how much time you have to allocate for self-care. Pick up a sport, talk to someone, join a social group that will lead you to being emotionally and physically healthier. Health is really all we have at the end, and without it, there isn't much we can accomplish. Please value your life and know that you can positively affect someone. Take care.
Oh my goodness, I am so very sorry you're going through such a rough time ... my heart goes out to you and yours. Please know you're not alone; and that people care about you and are sending you positive thoughts and energies. (((hugs)))
Ask for help with some of the chores. Perhaps your mother-in-law could help with the kids? Perhaps a neighbour could run some of your errands? Just for the next week or so to give you a bit of a break...You have said that alcohol doesn't take off the edge. Are you able to go out for a walk or a short jog? Ride a bike? Natural endorphins will help with the anxiety and the depression too. I really feel for you. It is a terrible place to be in...