You're welcome and thank you for your compliment:

Love your description of the experience here :)

What you quoted is my life's central conflict, in a nutshell.

On the one end, I feel wonderful and self-empowered. On the other, I feel isolated and disconnected from the world. I generally feel like I can't relate with people that I know, or that know me, and that's part of the fear I feel which causes me to lose flow state (gets me into my head).

I want to be able to help others to feel strong and to live freely, but I often resist being in flow (what I consider to be strength) in the presence of others for fear of intimidating them - I suppose it's actually more a fear of causing them to dislike me than it is a fear of breaking through their comfort zones. Hopefully that makes sense...?