I used to judge myself heavily and feel shame for being in the flow state (there was a time in my life when I would meditate for hours upon hours, sometimes even days at a time and this made it where I began to naturally meditate while doing other activities like playing basketball or socializing), because I feared that it came across to others as me being autistic (too absorbed in my own world to notice/ acknowledge others) and I could sense uneasiness in others when I was aware of being so intensely focused on my own agenda(s).

Now, for better or worse, I let the extreme feeling of peace and freedom reign free. I still wonder sometimes whether I come across as the most arrogant/ self-absorbed person of all time, but I know that my intentions are pure, so it doesn't bother me as much as it used to.

I definitely do benefit from focused energy at the "me - level", that much I can't deny, but I just wish I could somehow include people in my wonderful experience without feeling like I'm intimidating them with my intense energy (focus). I dunno, perhaps my problem is really just one of being autistic (just never diagnosed) or extremely introverted. In any case, I feel healthy and charged (downright wonderful).