Hey Jerry - you have to believe that you are worthy - once you accept that fact that you are worthy, your life which includes what you have dreamed for will begin to come try .. I can tell you that with you, YOU ARE WORTHY!!!! Accept everything that you are and have been Blessed with .. You have made so many conscious decisions and efforts to become a better person, husband and father .. you have realized your faults and embraced your strengths .. you are helping so many others reach their goals by just helping them to believe that they can .. you are showing us all that you are not a selfish person in that you are always willing to share what has helped you to become successful and more humble .. what kind of person does this .. YOU JERRY BANFIELD!!! Allow yourself to accept praise and compliments as you are worthy .. YOU ARE WORTHY!!! I love you Friend and I am so thankful each and every day that you are here to share yourself with the Steemit community .. we all have a lot to learn from you .. SUNSHINE247