It's funny that you mentioned this, but I know since a short time, I'll be having a family soon. By the way I like in the story how you switch from one thing to another thing. But yeah a lot of reasons and insecurities that hold you back from your dream and actually make you not Chase it, instead going to the job you hate, sitting on the couch when you get home watch TV or play computer games, wasting your life away. I've been there, but not anymore.