I understand the fear of “losing everything” or the idea that it may run out. Unlike you, I didn’t have security growing up and so I do tend to seek “pretty things”, to collect stuff that makes me feel like I have security. I love shiny, beautiful objects, I’m such a girly girl in that sense and even look for status symbols to show the world that I’ve finally “made it” as if I have something to prove.
It’s not something I’m honestly proud of but I am kind of enjoying a new found freedom and I don’t want to beat myself up about it. I guess I’m allowing myself these indulgences, for now.
I still give. I’d do anything for my family and friends and I hold them close, keeping my circle tight. To me, loyalty is everything.
What’s the point of having affluence if you can’t share it with those you love?
I just think balance is important and I think it’s something that is always in flux.
Thanks for this blog and for reminding me to check myself and where I stand in terms of greed and giving and the fear that it may one day all slip away.
Cheers Stella Belle!