@stellabelle I grow a deeper fondness for you with every post I read. I do believe you have truly expressed in words the community giving spirit of Steemit. So many times in life I have had people try to take advantage of me because kindness was given to them. I'll admit it started to make me jaded. When I very first arrived at Steemit over 9 months ago I was pretty broken. My posts were sad, depressing, and I was a hot mess. Through the kind words of fellow Steemians, heartfelt responses to my posts, and two 3 month breaks later I am a stronger/happier person, have a closer family, and reached 59 days of sobriety today. I have reverted back to the kindness I use to show others and am better for it.
Keep doing what you do!
ah, the drinking...i know it well.
I have to fight with addictions every day, it's a struggle.
Finding true sources of happiness, and finding examples of people doing good things is what keeps me in check.
And reminding myself of my past behavior, misery and hangovers, too....