Daddy has been gone for over 40 years (I was a boy when he passed). The pain is still with me. There is not, in my not so humble opinion, any right way to grieve. My brother-in-law his inner demons killed him. It was a different type of loss.
Loss is a fact of life, don't mean I need to like it. All I can do to help is virtually hold your hand and listen.
G-D bless you and give you comfort.
Thank you my friend. I wish the same for you.