Retirement -5minutefreewrite

For https://steemit.com/freewrite/@mariannewest/day-748-5-minute-freewrite-thursday-prompt-retirement

Let’s do this. This retiring thing. My

Oh, it’s like a hmmm. A thing that causes bruising just because you touch it. Is this what all our parents went through?

I know my parents mourned their parents, but… I dunno.

What was my dad like before his mom died? I guess I’ll never know.

I mean, I can’t know. Have I changed for good? Or will I resume being the person I was in September? Ugh. I hate how time works. I hate remembering September. Knowing within myself that I am remembering, accessing a time when my dad was alive from a time when he is not.

Man, I don’t want to think about it. It’s very present, though. Is there…

And now. Now the child has awoken, but he’s quiet. I wonder what happens when he wakes up, babbles a bit, and then is quiet for a bit. Is he thinking? Is he looking around? Is he gathering strength? Does it take a while for him to come fully awake? Is this what it’s like for adult humans, too, I just don’t pay attention much to people waking up? Oh, I bet there are youtube videos of that. I should watch them.