Seriously the first time of investing is always a hot cake and one might even give on the way if one gets to lose his first investment. But that's risk thought. Just like you said, one needs guts in order to cope.
I have always been dreaming of working independently, establishing my own organization and attaining financial freedom and I hope in no distance time I will achiece them.
As sure my friend you will find it if you really want it and fight every day for it to happen. Just do not lose focus.