I started this account years ago, and got nowhere with it.
It has just been broke, nothing to it, nothing from it. That's of course not how you get somewhere.
So here I am still nowhere
I have been travelling quite a lot this year and found myself in Sweden, where I just went out into the woods without a goal. Looking for something not knowing where it could be. Looking for a relationship to someone bigger.
I would even be pleased with someone equal. But at the end of the day I know, there should be giving and receiving.
You need someone below you: at least one person that is inferior to you in a way so that he or she can learn from what you already learned.
On the other hand you need someone superior: someone you can learn something from, someone you can receive advise and even support from.
We are easy to find people, we see as inferior, because we are proud. We can even easily find somebody that will listen to us and trust us. If we can't find a grown-up we might take a child.
It's different in the other direction though. We want someone we can learn something real from. The older we get, the bolder we get - this is true also for the aspect of pride. We get bolder expecting ourselves to be right - expecting others to be wrong by default. So in the process it gets harder and harder for us, to find someone we consider superior.
We are in a vicious cycle it seems. Does anybody know the exit, is there a way past this barrier?
Trying to find it for the next post and looking forward to your comments.