Everything is just memories

I never wanted things to happen like this. Even though sometimes you make me cry and annoyed. It turns out that what happened was only the falsehood you gave me. And now you leave me, and leave a million deep wounds and hurts in my heart. But, whatever my power. Everything is destined by the Creator.

This story began when I was in class IX in middle school. Maybe it's still early I know love. But this is the truth. Initially I knew him when I was at my friend's house. At that time, he and I were just friends. But, over time, our relationship became even closer. Honestly, I want to know him more.

I have spent 1 month with Amat. But it seems like I'm starting to have feelings for him.
"Whether it's spicy, salty, bitter, or sweet. But, whatever I do, I always remember. Oh God, is this what is called LOVE? " I murmured. Looks like I'm starting to like Amat, and I'm starting to love him. But can Amat understand my feelings for him? I want to express this taste. However, I am ashamed because I am prestigious. All I can do is wait and pray. who knows, someday, Amat also has the same feelings as I do.

At night, when I was relaxing in my room thinking about it, suddenly my cellphone rang. Message sign entered, and it turns out it was from Amat. Immediately I read the message from him.
Amat: "Hey Sit, can I ask or not?"
Siti: "hi too, may I, how do you want to ask?"
Amat: "But you answer honestly huh? Do you actually already have cwo? "
Siti: "Isn't it wrong to ask? I don't have a cwo yet, what's there, so I ask? "
Amat: "Same to me, do you want to be my partner?"
Siti: "It's not wrong for you to say that, don't kidding me, Mat!"
Amat: "I'm serious Sit, honestly as time goes by I start to love you, do you have the same feelings as my Sit?"
Siti: "what do I do, what should I answer?"
Very: "Just answer honestly!"
Siti: "I actually have long loved you ma Mat, but I'm embarrassed to say ma you because I'm proud"
Very: "So, now we are invented, the 18th, September 2011"
I am happy tonight, not waiting in vain for this. Time has passed. I love Amat more and more. I feel comfortable when I'm nearby. Every night after I study, I don't forget to text him. And even when I want to sleep, Amat doesn't forget to say the word "I love you Blanket" to me. And I immediately replied "I Love You too ayank, I will Love You Always". Because the title Cimut is a call he loves me.

In January-April 2012, he was an apprentice in the city of Martapura which is known by the nickname City of Intan. I never suspected him, though now I never met him, because the distance is far. But who knows? Secretly it turns out he was there starting to like a girl who had always liked him. On Wednesday night March 28, 2012, my phone rang. Apparently from Amat. I immediately read the message.
Very: "Blanket, how are you, Blanket udc maem pa blom? But Cimut don't forget to pray, will you, Cimut? ”
Siti: "Blanket abiz the evening prayer please ayank, blanket dc maem koq, yes Blanks don't forget Skalat koq ayank, ayank ge pa?"
Very: "Ayank, I'm confused Cimut, don't know why Ayank is confused, but clearly Cimut, don't be angry, if you want to be honest ma Cimut?"
Siti: "Yes, Cimut tries not to be angry even though the words that ayank make Cimut cry, are you willing to be honest about me?"
Very: "Actually Cimut, ayank here start to like other ma cwe. Ayank is also confused as to why such a taste must exist, whereas Ayank already has a girl who always makes Ayank smile. Can Blanket have a girlfriend besides Cimut?
Siti: "what is ayank ?! Is Cimut lacking attention so can you like ma cwe laen? "
I stopped typing my cellphone keypad. I slowly took a deep breath and my tears began to wet my cheeks. I continued again.
"Ayank, if Ayank wants to have another lover besides Cimut, that's fine. As long as we break up right now. Because I don't want someone I love to love someone else. While I'm here always waiting for him to come back! "
Very: "Forgive Ayank Cimut, Ayank can not mutute Cimut because Ayank really love Cimut. But on the other hand, Ayank also wants the girl to belong to Ayan Cimut. ”
Siti: "Come on ayank, if ayank wants him, okay with a heavy heart Cimut must go even though it's hard to forget someone we love."
Very: "Come on, don't want to see a blanket with someone else"
Siti: "Come on, even though it's hard but I don't have any other choice, thank you everyone, ayank"

Now, I was weakened by the fact that now seemed to hurt me. I didn't activate my cellphone for one week because I wanted to forget it. Days passed. I don't know what I'm thinking. After a while, my door knocked. However, it seems I am very familiar with the voice.
"Assalamualaikum. Siti? Siti? " said Amat a little loudly behind the door.
I opened the door. "Wa'alaikumussalam. Eh, you are Mat. What is the matter of coming here? What's there to do? " I'm so confused why he came here.
"Nope. There is nothing really. just want to go to your house. Can I enter your house, Sit? " Amat asked.
I invited him in. "Yeah sure. please come in, Matt. "
"Sit, my coming here is not just playing. there is another purpose. I want to repeat my happy times with you, Sit. Honestly, I find it hard to forget you. " Said Amat.
"I didn't hear wrong? It's not the first reason you want to break up because there's a girl you like. Why are you talking about going back again now? Don't joke around, Mat! " I said.
"Yes, I'm sorry. It feels different now, Sit. Do you want to get back with me again? " obviously very.
"Ouch, what should I do, Mat? It's not that I don't want to, because when you say that, it really hurts, Mat ”
"Well, it's okay, Sit. If you don't want to, I understand how it feels. Eh, I think I have to go home, because tomorrow I'm still an intern. " Obviously very again.
"Well, it's okay, thanks for playing my house. Be careful on the way, ok?" I said.

I'm confused what to answer. Even though I still love him, but he just said that to me. Yes, I think what's wrong with giving hope a second time. That night, I immediately texted him.
Siti: "Malem, sorry to disturb you when you said about this afternoon, did you seriously say that?"
Very: "yes. I'm serious, bro. Why blame me talking like that? "
Siti: "No, no. Yes, what should I do, I'm confused. Do I have to give you another chance? But this feeling can't lie, I still love you. What's wrong with repeating it all over again? "
Very: "Thank you for the opportunity. I try to be LOYALY ma Cimut dech. Dach late at night, time for Bobo Blanket huh? Tomorrow Cimut must go to school ”
Siti: "okay, let's go"

That night it felt like happiness that was long gone now returned again. But, I hope I won't lose it. But is this just a play of love to me? A year passes with him. When I entered high school, at first I felt no change from him. Until I realized he changed. And 1 month 2 days after my birthday yesterday 2013, he had no news. I don't know where he is I'm really worried, so that I can't close my eyes, because I'm afraid to lose them again. To the fact that I must answer my minutes. The cold night seemed to show the feeling of my heart that began to fade, love because he disappeared without news. Until one day the sound of my cellphone turned out to be a new number calling. I was confused I finally picked up, and her voice came.
"My dear beloved, forgive me for not giving you news for a long time. Looks like our relationship must break up. Enough until here our story. I hope you are happy with others. " I haven't answered yet, but it's been cut off.
When I hear his words to me like a knife that has cut my heart. Oh God, is this as big as my sin until the person I love has to leave again? Now only sweet memories when with you.

Tonight is so dark. Too thick as my heart is gray. Sadness that never ends always envelops. Remembering the memories that once made me happy. But now all the memories. No more laughter. Now I'm just alone passing through the days without you. Accustomed together to pass the day with all circumstances. Do you feel the same feelings as mine right now, Mat? But I believe that you are an unforgettable memory. Thank you for the love and affection you left with me. Let me keep it for the rest of my life.
However, I realized. Now, it turns out when I was sad, there was still my family who always loved me. Now I will forget you because you and I are only memories. And I try to be the best and I am sure that I can achieve my goals even though the past has made my life dim. I without you, I'm sure I can.
THE END ...