True sacrifice of live


I stared at my room. Crying at my current state. Otherwise, someone I love goes away from me. I took a picture and I saw a picture in it. I remember how we first met ...

“Renata !!! Come on, hurry, he's been waiting so long, "Monica yelled at me. He's my best friend and today we're going to meet a friend, he's gonna try me out! Well, it's true that he and I are often called, but we never met.
And today, I finally met her. Lucio, a very romantic and ideal man, is very different from me. I'm not very pretty, I think. To this day, I still wonder why he wants to see me.
We even arrived at a cafe in the South Jakarta area. Monica and I were looking for Lucio. It turns out Monica has seen Lucio before. We headed straight there. But he's not alone. Next to him was a blind man. She's pretty good, too.
“Hi! Nice to meet you, Renata, ”Lucas said with a sweet smile. She is so charming! "So you're not happy to see me?" said Monica accompanied by our laughter. "Oh yeah, introduce her, my best friend, Josh Tyree. As you can see, he is not a native of Indonesia. Her father is English. " Clearly Lucio. I could feel my heart beating faster as my eyes and Josh's eyes met, plus his charming smile. But at least I liked it at first sight.
I've been chatting with Josh for months now. We also went often together, accompanied by Lucio and Monica of course. Lucio is also getting closer to me, but I'm more comfortable with Josh. Maybe I fell in love with her.
On the eve of this week, Josh invited me to dinner. To be honest, I don't know what to wear. I'm too nervous. He'll pick me up tonight. How happy I am!

Tiinnn… Tiinnn…
Ah! It must be him. I hurried down and said goodbye. "Hao," I told her. She opened the car door for me. In the car, I was speechless. I don't know what to say. "Hey, why are you so quiet?" Josh asked me. "Hmm, I'm confused what to say," I replied plainly. He laughed and wiped my head. I can feel my face warming up. He ended up throwing some jokes that made me laugh out loud.
No matter what, we've reached our destination. At a cafe in Sudirman. The atmosphere here is very romantic. Note, this cafe is located on top of the building, so we can enjoy the view of Jakarta at night.
We ordered the food right away. During the wait, we had a casual chat. “Umm, Renata. May I ask you something? ” asked Josh suddenly. "Of course, of course," I said casually. "Umm, actually I ..." Josh looked very nervous.
"I've loved you since we first met. Umm, do you want to be my girlfriend? " I was in contact for a while. Her handsome face looks very serious. But that's not what surprised me. The question is. I can feel my face heating up again.
I nodded in agreement. "So?" ask him later. "I want to be your lover. I've loved you since we met, ”I said shyly. Josh climbed out of his chair. He was coming behind me and he was wearing a necklace. The waiter who delivered our food didn't look good. He hurriedly put down our food. “Sorry to interrupt. Have fun, "said the waitress as she left the two of us.
After dinner, Josh took me home. "Josh, please don't tell me Lucio about our relationship. It's not what it is, but you know how it feels to me. I don't want to ruin your friendship. I hope you understand, ”I said when we got to my house.
“Sure. I think so, too, ”she said softly. She even opened the door for me. "Good night, my lady," he said softly. I smiled and went inside. Tonight is the best night of my life!
The next day, I told Monica what happened yesterday. "What !? Are you crazy !? ” cried Monica. I can only bow. “Ah you are. You know Lucio has a crush on you. You're crazy, Renata Lie! " I bow inward.
"But you can't force a person's feelings. Anyway, Josh and I agreed to keep it a secret from Lucio, "I said at last. "It's up to you," replied Monica briefly.
“Hi girls! What the - AAA !!! " shouted lucio for a moment.
"What the hell, this is not a forest!" replied Monica annoyed.
"What's that? Who are you in front of? "
"Oh, this is a face mask."
"Oh, I thought you were ghosts in broad daylight! Hahahaha!!!"
Lucio is such a jerk. How dare he tell us ghosts in broad daylight. "Josh can't come, he has family affairs," Lucio said as he answered the question in my mind. We even joked until late afternoon.
“I'll be back, then. It's late. " I said goodbye. Lucio offered to take me home. Because of Monica's compulsion, I agreed. I could see Lucio's face was very bright.
During the trip, I was more quiet. I just answered Lucio's question. “Renata?” call Lucio worried. “Hmm?” answer me briefly. "Are you okay?" he asked. "Yes, I'm fine." It even accompanied our trip.
"Thanks for taking me home," I said before getting off the car. When I was about to open the door, suddenly Lucio's hand was in my hand. "I love you. Please be my girlfriend, ”he said while bowing. I don't know what to do. "Sorry, I can't. I love others, ”I said as he released his hand. I quickly went inside, leaving the good man.
Six months have passed. My relationship with Josh has grown closer, even though I've met both of his parents. But not for my relationship with Lucio. I often see him dating different women. Monica says it's because I rejected her love. I feel bad, but I can't do much.

Today is Josh and I's 6 month anniversary. Josh asked me to celebrate it the first time we met. This time, I'm not too nervous. Even now every time we date, I'm so happy. Seeing her beautiful smile makes me feel good.
As usual, Josh picked me up. He held my hand on the way. We didn't talk much. Even so, it feels like our hearts are talking to each other. I look at him. Her face looks very pale. Yes, he's been very pale lately.
"Josh, are you okay?" I ask you carefully. "Sure," he said, smiling at me. “But you look so pale. Should we just go home? ” I said worry. "I'm fine, honey," he said softly. But my heart says something's not right.

When we arrived at the cafe, we met Lucio. He looks very shocked and angry. "Lucio, this is not what you think," I explained. Josh takes Lucio to a place far from me. I choose to stay where I am. Josh seems to be begging Lucio a lot and Lucio's face turns into a pout. I don't know what they are talking about, but there is a sad smile on Lucio's face.
"Everything's fine," Josh said, hugging me. As I entered the cafe, I looked back, looking at the back of a man I had hurt.
After finishing our meal, Josh asked me to take a picture with him. Of course I agree. This is the first time we took a picture together. After that, he asked me to go somewhere.
That place is my favorite park. Under the full moon, he knelt before me and gently patted my back. "I love you, forever and always."
Since it was getting late, we decided to go home. In the car, we were speechless but our hands were together. There is only a romantic and romantic romance between us. I feel like I don't want to break up with him, I want to stop time.
In front of my house we hugged for the first time. I didn't want to let go of this very comfortable hug. “I love you,” she whispered, and she released her hug. I walked into the house, but it felt like something was up. I looked back and saw that the car was still in front of my house. I came in with a heavy heart.
The next day, I received an e-mail from him. The email contained a picture of us both last night. I'm smiling, but my heart aches. I stared at her tightly. It looks very happy, but behind it is a deep sadness. It felt like he was hiding something from me. But the secret to it was that he hid it from me. I pondered.
I didn't think our meeting that night was the last. Josh hasn't been calling me for 2 months. Her phone was off and my e-mail was not the one she was responding to. Josh, where are you?
After school, I hurried home. I have lunch and take a shower. After that, I checked my e-mail. There's an e-mail, from Josh.
“Renata, sorry lately I have not been notified. I don't think we can be together anymore. You might think I'm bad for suddenly ending our beautiful relationship. You didn't do anything wrong, and my reasons didn't make sense. I'll tell you why, at the right time. But trust Renata, I'm doing this for your good. I don't want to make you sad or disappointed. And until you read this e-mail, I still love you. "
I was screaming. How could he possibly cut off our relationship if he really loved me. Josh, you're frustrating me. I hate you, Josh Tyree! I cried in my bed. I'm sad, I'm disappointed, I'm angry.
Monica suddenly went into my room. He asked me what was going on, but I still cried. He read the e-mail earlier, and immediately hugged me as he finished reading it.
"Sorry, I didn't think he would do this."
"What do you mean?"
"Josh has had leukemia for a long time, but he has survived for you, Renata."
"You're kidding, right?"
"How can I joke about someone's situation."
"Then where is he now!"
"He was treated at a PIK hospital."
I immediately wiped my tears and prepared for the PIK Hospital. I don't want to be by her side in this situation. I love her.
As soon as we got to PIK Hospital, Monica and I headed straight to the room where Josh was being treated. I went in with the shock of the people inside. There were Lucio, Josh's parents, and some of Josh's relatives I didn't know.
I hugged Josh right away and cried. "Why!? Why didn't you tell me your true state !? You fooled me Josh Tyree! And foolishly I still love you! " I said yelling.
"Renata, my love, I'm really not strong. I don't want to make you sad or burdened by this. I am a fool, but I am not a fool in loving women. I'm glad you're here, in my arms. Sorry I can't keep up with your days anymore. I lo..ve .. you… ”
“ Josh! Josh Tyree! ” I screamed as I cried. Suddenly Josh's heart stopped beating, his breath stopped. Oh my God, bring him back.
The doctor came in and examined Josh, but Josh was gone. I'm getting scratched. I don't think God is fair. I want my Josh back!

Little did I know, the figure I was holding was so wet thanks to my tears. I'm trying to be quiet. Calm down Renata, calm down, my inner self. "Renata, come on, we'll be late," Monica asked.
Yes, today is the day of Josh Tyree's funeral, my love. I wiped away my tears and tried to smile. I put the figure in its place and hurried away.
During the funeral, I couldn't bear to hold back my tears. I really lost it. But I have to be sincere, so he can be quiet there. I am Renata, a woman who will always be cheerful no matter what.
After the funeral was over, I stayed for a moment at his funeral. "Josh, I'll make you proud of me. Hope you are happy there, ”I said. Then I walked over to Lucio and Monica who were waiting for me.
I look back and I feel like Josh is smiling at me. I raised my chin, smiled, and stepped forward. I, Renata Lie, am a strong woman!