Me and her. I do not know what we really are, if you say we are dating do not have any relationship. But it's not even dating, because we know we love each other. Relationships like this have been running for two years, I don't even know what I'm looking for in my relationship and your thing. Like walking without direction, that's our relationship. But, actually this happened is not entirely your fault. But this is because my principle is also a parasite of our relationship.
I promised myself I would not date before graduating high school. however, the situation said differently, before I graduated my heart had fallen on someone. I love your Hal, but ... I don't want to violate my principles either. Until one day I say this to him.
"I understand ..." he just answered like that.
Either, was he disappointed or not.
A few weeks after I told him that, he seemed fine until now and our relationship was not broken, even though his status was unclear.
Today, is the day my school holds my MOS and your thing is one of the committee members. We are tasked with taking care of new students who enter our school. In the implementation of the event there was nothing interesting, but after a few days passed I heard that there were students who liked your thing.
"Ilka, you know there isn't a new kid who likes your girlfriend"
"what? Boyfriend? .. just good "I answered simply
" eh, really "
" then, what's the relationship with me? "
"Yes_ ..." Before my friend continued his words I moved from there
Because I felt uncomfortable with the information, I also did not know, when I heard that my heart felt doubtful that your Halmu can survive to love me, will still keep his promise to be my companion. But, again I suppressed the bad thoughts, I tried to believe that he would not betray our love even though the only thing that binds us is feelings for each other.
This week is the last week of the MOS event. as usual we close it with various entertainment programs. Halmu also contributed voice of mellunya at that time, I could only smile when looking at his face, if we could quickly establish love, maybe my feelings would not depend on it like this.
The event was over, and it was getting dark and at school only a few people appeared. I deliberately did not go home early because I felt that even boarding would be boring.
At school, I help my friends tidy up the hall that was held at the closing ceremony of MOS. I think I will go home if I feel tired.
Beginning Semester 3 starts, on the first day I come to school rather late afternoon, because usually on the first day of school activities are not too crowded. In the canteen, as usual before the bell rang me and friends often talked. I found, today's topic is the same about a new kid who likes you. So annoying. I texted your Hal to ask for an explanation, but there was no reply. There I was more annoyed.
My heart trembled, I asked Tanya to myself. Has his love faded, because only the new kid ?, he could have dumped me, he ... oh, no, don't think about him. I'd better ask him directly.
On top of the school building, you and I talked about it, coincidentally today he also talked about something to me. I didn't even know what he was going to talk about might explain the gossip.
"Um ... what's up you" I ask as if I don't know
But, your thing is just silent ..
"ok, if there isn't, I'll just ask you, there's se ..."
"Ilka .." your thing interrupted
"Yes .."
"I ... it seems ..." Your thing looks nervous
"What am I?"
"I'm sorry .."
My heart was wide, his eyes looked serious, for some reason I felt scared .. with his eyes, but I tried to make my face look relaxed ..
"I'm sorry for what? .. oh yeah I know .. gossip is not ...? I also ... "Halmu again cut the conversation
"That's not just gossip ..."
"You mean? Does that girl really like you? Yes, it's okay ... "he spoke again before I finished.
"I've invented with him" The
hearing of my chest feels tight .. my eyes are sore ... and .. test, test, tears run down my cheeks.
"You, don't joke"
"I'm serious, I'm sorry ilka, I can't wait for uncertainty."
"uncertainty.?"
"My heart already has him .. forgive me .. I can not wait .."
Your thing then left me alone.
I could not believe this was happening, and said straight from his lips. I felt slammed from the sky,
helpless, could not feel ... very sick ..
My hope was gone ..
That day, was a gray day for me.