I am a countryman who served far in the interior of Papua, currently I am undergoing a long-distance relationship (LDR) with a guy who is in the city of Pare Pare, one of the cities in the province of South Sulawesi, as I write this article our relationship is just walking towards the third month of a relationship that is still relatively new, but I live it seriously.
I've never had an LDR before, this was my first experience. Why do you want LDR? It's simple, because initially I underestimated those who underwent LDR, I used to see a friend who underwent LDR must be congenital Lebay. Lebay attitude that I often meet very often I find very diverse, ranging from hearing from the perpetrators of the LDR directly or reading it on social media such as Facebook, tweeters, paths that overreach asking forgiveness from the distancers.
In the beginning I thought that LDR was easy and uncomplicated, the important thing was to trust each other with arrogance, I said maybe I could also undergo LDR without using the overreacting program and finally I also underwent LDR and this is my story that hopefully can be useful for the distancer wherever I am.
Four days we rarely communicate and give each other news, this is rarely done after I returned to my place of duty in the hinterland werur village of Papua, although I was in Makassar and he was in the city of Pare Pare even though the distance took four hours from the city of Makassar but still feels close because our communication is smooth, just fine via telephone, fuel, wechat and facebook. Now it is very difficult even to not even sms telephone anymore because sellers of credit are seldom and the telephone network is turned on and does not have the right schedule. This heart aches hold back longing.
While still in Makassar our relationship was tested with a very complicated problem, the problem that made me ask for separation several times with him but because of his determination to keep the word separated from me was ignored until he was bored with my insistence to separate finally agreed and it turned out there was the initial problem, apparently I I can't forget and can't part with him. I love him too much, even though there are many things that can actually be an excuse for not being able to re-establish a relationship with him, the first he ever confessed to me was that he had made up and was close to his ex, where he admitted that during his close relationship with me he is still dating with his ex, like a bolt of lightning grabbing my whole body trembling and my tears like a broken dam, even though at that time I was in the Makassar Trans Mall again calm down from this problem, and suddenly he answered my fuel like that.
At night I called and confirmed his decision he was very angry and disappointed at me he cursed and blasphemed me like a loser and words that I could not accept we officially dispersed at that time, but it was hard facing him every day I called hoping he was like before again that could not make me angry and hurt with his unusual attitude he gave to me, but it turns out he was very hard with his decision, who knows what he had in mind where his attitude is always maintain this relationship when I always ask to break up with him. I assume this is a punishment for me who always underestimates the word break so unyielding for a relationship. I tried to accept it but it was hard.
The new round had finally turned upside down when he was sure to disperse and was so sick and disappointed with my attitude that he finally fiercely opposed my attitude that looked weak and whined so that he would return to be his girlfriend, I cried so I became remembered I had, when when we spend the night by telephone to no delay, he always asked me how I was, until the time I called him did not want to be disturbed by any of these activities, we reminded each other in worship in accordance with the commitments when we invented, within a month we only twice. meet. I really like the innocence, simplicity, honesty, and a sense of belonging, affection and attention, this is what makes me strong to undergo the type of dating really, I really avoid that long disntance relastionsip LDR and this is the first time I ask about his readiness at first time he expressed his seriousness to want to date me. I think straight LDR is just too heavy, especially with PLU. Oh my god? but it's true, too, depending on how to react to it.
Because there are some friends my friends all failed with a long distance relationship, but he witnessed me if he was ready to live it and I said yes, finally on January 5, 2014 we also invented. Although his age is far adrift 13 years under me but with his mature attitude makes me dismiss it all and he can make me comfortable living it.
Exactly February 05, idly I text just to remind you that our relationship is exactly one month, but unfortunately you no longer love me, I'm sad that I can't live it with you I'm sad that I can't call you at night anymore, we can't cry anymore together , we can no longer see the success that we aspire together, even though my great hope can be through it all with you as we promised together at the beginning we started this relationship, finally he replied to my wechat if he still cheered me I was stricken and happy and finally I called him asking seriously asking for the chat on we chat.
If he can't forget me, it's really hard to forget me the way I think he is so smart at storing his feelings, but in my mind why he wasn't as expressive yesterday, everything feels expressed to me, but aaahhh let the most important thing for me is he's back, a person that I really love has returned in my life.
My hope went on as usual, but he was still very cold, there was a new story I heard from him that he had been close to his OM, which incidentally was also PLU, and they knew each other since we were angry. His uncle found out about himself from my cellphone on his cellphone that was read while he was taking a bath and his cellphone was opened by his uncle and finally his uncle admitted that if he was also sick, new trials came to our relationship.
Whether this is appropriate or not, I am jealous of his uncle who says he is very overly attentive and always asks to be reported through his wechat, even his uncle sympathetically lends his motorbike to my girlfriend, this is what adds to my confidence to be heavy jealous, but he always calms me with said there was no way he was going out with his uncle, even his uncle always reminded him to be loyal to me, but I wasn't so sure I was still jealous of his mysterious uncle.
Every time I pray, I always plead with his heart to be strengthened for me, I beg the Almighty to take care of him for me, every short message I do not forget to slip me a message that I am very dear and hope a lot to him with this relationship, I always send him sms and not hoping to return the reply because of the latest news from him that he has been busy with his competency test and he also has no money to buy credit like he was early, I think his allowance is inserted to buy motorcycle gasoline that his uncle lent.
Yesterday I just called him but still it felt like he was cold, disappointed it felt but let it be just a prayer of my strength this time to get him before, each of my prayers were never absent asking for the return of his feelings like we started dating.
I hope he still loves me ... I hope he can still maintain and not forget his promise to be ready and sincere with this long distance relationship. LDR makes me appreciate the real relationship more, LDR also makes me know the meaning of patience and the feeling of loss, why? because I'm sure every new person feels the importance of something, when we've lost.
But all just test how we are able to survive, the most painful thing is not when we feel alone, but when we are forgotten people we can not forget, do not give love to people who cannot accept it, because love should look after each other injured.
One thing that I still believe, that God will reunite me with him, if indeed God has prepared him to decorate the story in my life and if that does not happen, I will try to accept it gracefully, heartened and pumping all the patience in inside of me. Many lessons and lessons that I can learn from this pain. I promise I will be someone strong and strong and able to stand upright on my own feet in achieving happiness and no longer depend my happiness on someone. I promise to continue my life well again. I promise to keep smiling and try to give the best for the people who love me. I promise to keep all the memories we have deep in the bottom of my heart. I promise to learn as hard as I can to forget it, but promise me one thing, if this is your choice, be happy always for me, be successful as your promise when you strengthen me when we cry together, be your parents' pride one thing the most important thing is to wear the uniform that you dreamed about first.
Thank you for everything, thank you because you have come to give color to my life so far, my feeling has never diminished.
Suppose that even for a moment, I will always love you and miss u. M. RITS.