Nice post and real. I was blind sided by a very unexpected event that changed my life. I meditated and prayed every day for things to be the way I wanted them. It didn't happen and I later came to understand it was for the best. I didn't see how I could survive emotionally or financially. A good friend said to me, "just take one bite of the elephant at a time". And, also, "a way will be made." It was hard but gradually I could see a new life unfolding. Fear is a necessary evil I guess much like anger but both waste lots of thought and energy. All the best to you and anyone who deals with either of these.