I am sorry for you. Children should not go though what you have experienced. We all have a story that has shaped us. We carry the baggage. And no child should go though this. Not everyone deals with the baggage. Most folks do not know how to. Writing about it and journaling is one good way as you re doing. Counseling is another. God gives us crosses in life to bring us closer to Him. It does not always work. But at least you and I and others can speak out in an effort to help others who are going through the same. Thanks for sharing your special and important message.