Suddenly the phone rang, both were distracted,the dream was broken and the alarm went off. Brayden said to himself now-a-days even dreams are like caller tune. Dream about your lover but disconnected with bullshit caller tune and here it's an alarm.
Brayden life was simple but he's heart fallen for an another heart that was very complicated. He sometimes wishes her heart was simple like him but the world never works with human wishes and especially when it comes to human being. Brayden was originally from Italy, but went to Israel just for his further studies.
14th January 2008,
This was the day were Ellen enters into his life. At that moment he had no idea many things were waiting by the destiny to screw his heart and make him fallen within six months. They were both classmates. Brayden and Ellen became good friends they use to spend more time with eachother by cracking jokes, discussing chapters.
Including some healthy flirting that both use to enjoy each others company. Brayden was a writer wrote many poems for her. In fact Ellen was impressed as she was unaware of his talent. He expresses her in many ways by dedicating poems for her while they were in friendship at that moment. He wrote this poem for her while describing the way he feels in this friendship bond.
A new window to dream,
Stealing the colours from sky;
To write about you.
June and the many leaves on the path
The dreams which I paint
The many poems on the page
To write about today
Have to write about tomorrow
To read to dream and breathe
Forever a memories to deep
Let the words fall for you!
Let the pain burn for you!
"(My Dear lovely Ellen)"
Brayden never wanted to say his feelings towards her but something unusual happened on 8th of September, she was describing about the family. They were searching a guy for her marriage. Brayden! Maybe I'll be getting married soon.
By hearing all this fuss from her side. He remains speechless!
He was so over whelmed, suddenly started expressing his feelings infront of her. I feel for you Ellen and I just thought it's just an attraction but it's not, I can never able to forget you. Just heart says to spend more time with you. The way you care for me and the humble nature of yours and the way you behave. I started to feel very strong.
Since she knows about his feelings one thing was changed they always have one deep conversation about move on you will get better than me Brayden, I don't deserve you from Ellen's perspective.
From him 'You are my beloved and I will never let you go easily and I'll love you forever and keep this relation secretive'. Solution from Brayden was simple but not for her. She had different solution,she follows world rules and regulations that is based on society. But Brayden follows his own rules and screw the world. Ellen don't want to have any kind of relation expect friendship and also she can't cheat her future life partner. Ellen said to him that after marriage my husband will be everything for me and I will follow what he says. 'I can't promise you anything Brayden'! still saying to you move on Man. Don't make me feel guilty as she don't want to develop feelings for him because they don't have future together, Ellen's family members are strict. They had given freedom to choose any guy but only of her religion.
Brayden was an Atheist and from different religion. Even though he was from different religion he don't believe in beliefs and not even his whole family so this was the issue that stopping her to accept him. She can't go against her family as family is everything and cannot hurt them by choosing him. After explaining all this things to him. Brayden was stubborn and always want one thing from her that was love unconditionally.
He respects her, he understood all the circumstances but still can't leave her. He always tries to explain her that there is nothing wrong to cheat. You can keep both, no one will ever gonna know about us. we are not the first one doing affair please don't stop yourself for developing the feelings.
"I want you to feel and love me Ellen"!
One day he wrote explaination related to different types of affair just to make her understand that cheating is not wrong in love.
Ellen! Let me explain the good side of affair usually from beginning of your life you hear oh! affair is bad and not really good, not loyal and many craps.
So, let me tell you the different kind of affairs. He explains whatever he understands about the affair thing. After sometime,
Ellen!You must be thinking how affair is loyal as we cheat partners. Well this is only one theory which world made the rule but Infront of God eyes as you believe in God. He will be loyal as love is the only thing God haven't made with sin or wrong. Never think you aren't loyal.
Ellen was blank for a moment and was pondering, how mad he became in her love. She just had no idea what to reply. After few minutes she said that ok I agree with you but can't love two person at the same time. I can't destroy marriage life as you won't be all the time. I can't Dear Brayden!
He was brutally hurt this time with her response; Absurd and haven't said anything.
Ellen said that she can't see someone hurt because of her. "lf you want I can go from your life or I won't disturb you".
He said that 'It will pain me more, if you go from my life, I can take the pain of you not loving me but can't take the pain of you going from my life forever'.
Brayden says 'something is better than nothing'. I may not able to be with you always as even I'll be having my wife and job but still I will take out time for you and whenever we meet that will be our eternal moment.
Ellen is in shocked. Why you need sex when you will be marrying?
Believe me once you are married you will be spending more time with her. she will give you all the fun and fulfill all your desires.
There are lot of woman. If I want I can give money and clench my thirst. I only love you, it means I have a strong feelings for you in both emotional and in physical way. It's not about physical that will be going to provide with my future wife but I can't feel that enjoyment of desire and that happiness of depth while making love with you.
I hope you not having that kind of thinking oh it's like double enjoyment wife, then you. With wife it will be only lust and for your kind information even if I have feelings for her still can't feel the same that way I have for you. Our daily lifes; we own like a mobile phone we don't value a lot as we never own it. I can't own you as a wife but whenever we meet I'll be valuing you more'.
Ellen said, if I become your wife so my value will be less like mobile or you will be less like mobile or you will search a Ferrari outside right?
If you become my wife then you are my Maruti 800 and Ferrari will be hot girls but I'll always gonna drive my car even if my dream is Ferrari as value will not be the same but demand will be higher than value. If no demand, value existence is useless Dear!
see in every way there is a win, win situation. Basically wherever you are no matter what kind of situation you put into me, you will be the main priority.
Ellen yes Dear! I can see. That's why I'm proud of you.
He meltdown, but somewhat makes him happy. She agreed to be sweet and romantic and agreed to be loyal and having no objection cheating on life partners.
Brayden's love is not wrong if you see from his view instead of world moral values and all happening due to circumstances. It's right whoever said love never being wrong but circumstances make us no choice and some people forget and sacrifice. But his love was full of madness and very stubborn. He just can't let her go at any cost.
Once he said to her "Every love story have one enemy and in this story world is my biggest enemy". Due to the moral and principles of society life is right or wrong only according to the world. In my love there is no right or wrong because our love is like water and water has no shape.
At last he wrote to her _
Husband will be loving you,
Wife will be loving me,
You will be loving him,
I will be loving wife.
But we will be not just loving but creating the love for our family from heart, but when it comes to us, we will be having the love which is already created.