Purpose:
This post will provide evidence that the stalking I experienced during my involvement in Pizzagate investigations was likely coming from my rapist / abusive tranny ex-husband, Joel Philo, and likely not at all from the people I suspected before. I feel the need to explain all of this at this time, since I found the evidence I was lacking; and, in case something should happen to the evidence, I'm posting to Steemit so it cannot be removed from the Blockchain. I've been known to lose things I needed or see them scrubbed by Imgur, Twitter, or Facebook - thus, I'm just going to get it out there while I have it. No, Joel, I'm not posting this to be an "attention whore," to quote your death threat from the screenshot below, it's simply a response to your desperate pleas for attention through stalking, so here's some narcissistic supply.
Note: if you're someone who follows the faked larp of a story of ZEAUX_CXT on Voat or Twitter in any way, and you want to skip to the proof and save yourself a lot of time, scroll to the very bottom. If you're just here in an effort to understand why I posted this at all, go ahead and read the whole thing.
First, a little background on what I posted on this blog in the past, documenting through screenshots the numerous threats and intimidation tactics I was subjected to:
1: A warning to the Pedos; 2: Greg Chism?; and 3: Doyle Mills and Scientology?
While it's sometimes been terrifying wondering who was really doing these things, apparently I had to be told by multiple people that "it's most likely your ex, and no one else," before I could fully see through everything. It's a similar process to deprogramming yourself from brainwashing. When you're groomed to be subjected to a particular type of abuse, it's not possible for the victim to see through all the lies without some time and space away from the abuser. In retrospect, it seems foolish that I imagined it was anyone but Joel, when I think about the things that were said on my various blogs and articles, things like "someone should set up a GoFundMe for your mental help..."
and "you do not deserve to have children at all, lose your kids to CPS and die in a fire."
In the past, I've tried to set up GoFundMe accounts to help me raise money for an attorney to attempt to regain primary custody of my two oldest children, and in the process, I told people about what an abusive person my ex was. This was just due to my circumstances at the time, that I couldn't afford to fight someone with such a huge salary and so many financial resources, who was constantly one upping me in court, and then using the win as a means to further abuse me outside of court. Although I didn't raise enough to hire an attorney, Joel took screenshots of my GoFundMe pages, and decided it was "harassment" and told the cops that I was "poor, desperate and obsessed with him." He later tried to claim that I do this for income in order to raise my child support amount beyond what it should be. Then recently, his attorney wanted me to discuss my several year old GoFundMe pages in my discovery responses, so obviously, he thinks that I committed some major crime against his ego by trying to ask others for help when I had no other way. Sorry Charlie but at least for now, there's no law in the U.S. against telling people that your abuser abused you.
Background on how this came to be something I thought might be related to my work investigating Pizzagate:
Last year, shortly after I decided to publish my first article on Pizzagate, I became involved in another investigation of a YouTube channel called "Toy Freaks," which is now deleted from YouTube after I reported them to multiple media agencies and law enforcement agencies. This channel seemed to have nothing but pedophilic and child abuse content (see my other articles) and I was not the only one who noticed and reported it, but I became extremely disturbed by the content, and furthermore, I believed one of the girls was a missing child, Lisa Irwin, and I also found some evidence online regarding his associations with suspicious people that I thought linked Greg Chism to the abduction of Lisa Irwin.
Either way, I gave it my all and I ended up realizing that there was nothing more I could do.
Around the same time that I was heavily into reading and researching Pizzagate, I met Travis Smith on Facebook, in a Pizzagate discussion group. Travis soon asked me to write for his website, Readwipedandblew.com.
I was then invited by him to some Twitter groups with private discussions on "Elsagate" and I was introduced to a person in the group using the name "Bryon Adams." (If you're hearing the song, "Heaven" or "Everything I do" by Bryan Adams in your head when you pronounce it, congratulations, #MeToo.)
Through Adams, allegedly another journalist, I was sent information on tangentially related investigations involved in the Voat / Elsagate investigation, and invited to write for his blog as well, something that didn't end up happening.
Bryon was sent alleged "information" from someone regarding a missing woman in his country named Anne Faber and I republished the stories he sent me on this blog and on Travis's website. One of Bryon's articles I reposted to Readwipedandblew.com under the title, "Bound and Gagged Child For Sale on YouTube." Bryon suspected some of this to be related to Anne Faber, who was missing, but then later debunked it and some of his posts were removed. I have one of the articles here, see: background with screenshots.
I also sent Bryon detailed information about some of the other threats I had received for a few months and on an ongoing basis at that time because he seemed to want to see it.
At one point I began to suspect Bryon might be pulling my leg and that accelerated around the time he sent me a link to a twitter page going by the name ZEAUX_CXT, which instantly alarmed me the second I saw it, due to the handwriting of my ex-husband appearing on the twitter account. I'm not saying Bryon is behind this, but I'm also not saying that he's not fake, since I have no way to verify who he is.
For those who don't know about that situation in my personal life, here's my blog about the ex.
Joel is a "transgender" fetishist, with fantasies that equate to pedophilia, such as breastfeeding and pregnancy "envy" which means he wants to pretend he's pregnant, and then have a baby suck on his chest because it sounds hot to him.
He decided it was a good idea to rape me during the process of our divorce to exert his control over me. Contrary to the modern propaganda, "transgender identified" men don't actually identify as women, they're simply perverts who enjoy playing dress-up and hurting women. They don't think they're women, and they usually don't even want operations to make themselves into mutilated men. But they do want to control other people and they get a rise out of victimizing others. In fact, here's more background on what "transgender" is really all about: Study Shows Most Sex Offenders, Pedophiles, and Rapists are actually Autogynephiles (the "T" in LGBT
For that rape, Joel was no-billed by the Grand Jury (it is estimated that only 6 out of every 1000 rapes leads to a conviction, but I was congratulated for "making it that far"). Although that rape wasn't the only incident involving force, and there were many where he had sexually molested me, or hurt me in some way, it was the only one I prosecuted.
The six months he was being prosecuted before the no-bill were the only really peaceful moments I've had since I left him in 2011, in terms of worrying about what he might do next, simply because he left me mostly alone during that time. A few days after his no bill, he was already down at the police station claiming I was harassing him, after I'd asked him to stop contacting me several months before that (oh, the irony).
On a domestic violence questionnaire that I took at a shelter I go to, with questions about his past and present behaviors towards me, I score the highest on "likely to get murdered by him" and thus, I decided to document some of the evidence against him online in case he ever decides to make any sort of attempt on anyone in my family. Past instances of abuse include false police reports, stalking, and false CPS allegations. Last fall, he used the threats detailed below as an excuse to have CPS called on me and alleged that the stalking I now realize HE was doing to me was evidence that my children were "in danger from my online investigations." After the case was closed as ruled out, I learned that the category CPS had put the allegations into were considered "sexual abuse" and that the person who made the report used the fact that I was writing about pedophiles to claim that I was "allowing my children to be used by pedophiles."
In no universe did I ever allow my children to be used by pedophiles, but as I told my counselor, I suppose that reporting on a crime can put you in danger from the criminal attacker responsible for what you've reported. This compares to the situation any woman is in any time she tries to leave her abuser.
In my case, the abuse continues even 7 years after our divorce, and I hope that at some point he will decide to give up, especially since he's already managed to get away with everything.
Now, back to "Bryon Adams" and the ZEAUX_CXT account:
I was asked to "help" Bryon with decoding or investigating the bizarre messages he was being sent, which contained strings of characters, similar to those that apparently, allegedly, members of Voat and Reddit had been "decoding" using cryptography tools available online.
His articles included instructions on using online tools to decode the messages such as ROT 13 decoders.
Being the non-nerd that I was, I had never seen any type of cryptography in my life and didn't know what to do with this at all but I found it bizarre.
The main point I am making here about ZEAUX_CXT is that it had a bunch of journal entries on it which bore the handwriting of my stalker ex-husband Joel Philo, but it was being sent to me through third parties and it was obviously fake. Yet the two people I discussed it with, Travis and Bryon, were treating it as though it was some kind of serious thing that needed investigation.
The journal entries were obviously in Joel's handwriting. I showed it to my mom and my sons, and they agreed with me, not that I needed their approval. I took a screenshot of one of the photos on the account and texted it to him asking him if this was some kind of a joke.
Joel did not respond.
I told both Travis and Bryon (over Twitter) that I was being pranked and they reacted as though I was crazy to think this was about me, and Travis became angry because he accused me of implying Elsagate was "about me" or implying that it was fake. I never said that, I simply told him that this one Twitter page was fake.
Then last November, I was sent messages by someone on Twitter and then invited to a chat on Discord, a program I never use.
They included veiled death threats and comments that I might survive if I pretend to be naive, and a link to a blog which I assume to be for "The Finders" which is allegedly a black op being conducted by criminal elements in our government, specifically to abduct children for Satanic Ritual Abuse.
This link that they sent me via Discord was the "Pelzer SC blogspot" link (I assume for "The Finders") that also appears on the Voat thread I mention down below. It's a link I never clicked on, and that I recommend you do not try to look at since it is most likely full of NSFW, traumatic content.
I also took some screenshots of the threats, and posted them to my Twitter and later shared some of them on my Steemit blog. Twitter has since removed some of my posts, [such as this one] (~~~ embed:9304239063344005130), so it may take me a while to find the screenshots to post here. At the time I thought it might be coming from Greg Chism, or someone involved in Elsagate. Travis kept telling me that I had "pissed off a serial killer." twitter metadata:YW15cGhpbG98fGh0dHBzOi8vdHdpdHRlci5jb20vYW15cGhpbG8vc3RhdHVzLzkzMDQyMzkwNjMzNDQwMDUxMzApLCBzbyBpdCBtYXkgdGFrZSBtZSBhIHdoaWxlIHRvIGZpbmQgdGhlIHNjcmVlbnNob3RzIHRvIHBvc3QgaGVyZS4gQXQgdGhlIHRpbWUgSSB0aG91Z2h0IGl0IG1pZ2h0IGJlIGNvbWluZyBmcm9tIEdyZWcgQ2hpc20sIG9yIHNvbWVvbmUgaW52b2x2ZWQgaW4gRWxzYWdhdGUuIFRyYXZpcyBrZXB0IHRlbGxpbmcgbWUgdGhhdCBJIGhhZCAicGlzc2VkIG9mZiBhIHNlcmlhbCBraWxsZXIuInw= ~~~
I became concerned based on a number of things that were said that they may target my children. The messages and profiles were Satanic and scatology related, and one of the messages included a selfie of Greg Chism, the man I had previously written about in my Toy Freaks articles.
Having no "proof" of my ex-husband's handwriting the "friends" I was working with treated me like I was insane to even suggest it is his handwriting. Having a law degree and studying for the bar exam I know a little bit about handwriting evidence in court so I simply told them that I don't need their opinions and if they didn't believe me then I did not care, that's fine, they can go on thinking ZEAUX_CXT is some sort of Satanic page that has something to do with Pizzagate.
I know his handwriting and although I couldn't find any old samples at the time, I knew enough to know to avoid buying into this story for any length of time. However, based on what was shown to me I was led to believe that whoever is responsible for that page was posting cryptography that was going to decode to reveal "someone's Facebook or Twitter or Social Media account." It is possible this could be an attempt to intimidate me by letting me know they have my email, Social Media or Facebook accounts, and I assumed that to be the case based on the fact that I had my computer infected with malware and my email was hacked.
Even after all of that, someone going by the name "Richard Dickeson" - WARNING NSFW PHOTOS on Facebook started sending me links to a YouTube video of a red haired woman 'bound and gagged for sale.' (I assume this was specifically meant for me since I have red hair.) The video was titled "Taped Up" and it harkens to the "Bound and Gagged Child For Sale on YouTube" article I reposted from Adams.
His profile included a photo of a dead body that was naked lying in a bathroom, (NSFW, if you click on his profile you can see it but I decided not to share it here) in a pool of blood, with other messages stating he wanted to ejaculate to dead children, videos titled "Kid Poops Twice on Ride" and also, a link to one of my Steemit articles. Note: Joel's middle name is Richard, and his grandfather went by the name Dick.
As of two months ago, the ZEAUX_CXT account was still being referenced and sent to me online.
How this topic has any followers to this day I do not know, but a few weeks back, someone on Voat tagged me in a post about another "ZEAUX_CXT Torture Video" and it was supposed to be "Similar to the Podesta Fatherhood Web video." (NSFW, I do NOT recommend trying to look at that video at all)
Some of the comments included that there was a child being put into an acid bath.
Here's a sample of what they wrote Disturbing. Note: they introduce their post with links to some of my articles mentioned above where I reposted Bryon Adams' stuff.
I simply told my friend on Voat to stop tagging me in the posts because they were very likely from my ex-husband and just a stupid larp.
The large variety of threats I've received and harassing messages I received seemed to be from someone who hated me, and nobody hates me more than Joel. I've detailed them in the past on this blog, as well as other places.
Conclusion
Apart from the main point of this post, I must say, it is now my opinion that Elsagate was a psy-op.
Although there was something bad going on with Elsagate, there were a lot of things that were simply scrubbed and covered up after the main Elsagate channels got taken down. I see those as having been pre-planned, given the media coverage being so coordinated and well timed in Mid-November 2017 after ToyFreaks got taken down.
It was definitely evil, but only meant to keep our eyes off of the ball. I have seen so many things coming out of popular YouTube channels in the exact same time frame discussing or alluding to Toy Freaks, using nearly similar wording, and all but verbatim copying my prior articles on Toy Freaks. And the major articles discussing the "investigation" of Greg Chism made it obvious to me that he was never actually targeted to be busted for anything, and that he was a part of the psy-op.
There was even a Rhett & Link / Good Mythical Morning episode mocking the "Spatula Girl" character of Victoria Chism from Toy Freaks, where they visit a spa called "Spa Chula." This episode involved an evil child demanding YouTube hits, and a Dad running a spa that 'plugged clients into a matrix,' and fed them urine in champagne glasses.
At the end of the episode Rhett and Link mock the Elsagate phenomenon by saying that there's an epidemic of children opening toys on YouTube and we have to stop it.
Throughout my entire experience working with Travis on his website, and otherwise being involved in reading or following the Pizzagate "research," especially on Voat, Facebook, and Twitter many of the claims being made by so-called Pizzagate researchers started to become more and more bizarre the longer I followed it and I was left wondering how many of these people were disinformation agents.
While at first, it consisted of mostly Wikileaks related content, later it became a firestorm of unverifiable claims and ridiculous sounding news about cannibalism and sending politicians to be tortured at Gitmo.
This culminated for me in the Q anon phenomenon where many so-called "researchers" began virally sharing bizarre "drops" of intel on 8chan and requiring that only certain "researchers" known as "bakers" were allowed to post new threads. I won't go into specific critiques of Q anon here, but within a few days I realized that we were all being pranked by whoever was behind that psy-op.
This ridiculousness, the massive attempt to muddy the waters of the original Pizzagate story with mounds of fake news, and the fact that I became the butt of harassment in one of these fake news attempts, made me want to get completely out of investigative journalism, as it seemed at the time that the majority of people who were online and concerned about these things seemed to either be fake, or they were agents.
So, in conclusion, I'm posting this not just for my own protection, but because I wanted to supply the proof of my ex's handwriting, in case anything else bizarre is planned for the "truther" community regarding that stupid ZEAUX_CXT account. It's not worth wasting your time on knowing that it's based on a personal vendetta against me, a virtual nobody in the online journalism world.
Whoever disagrees with me is welcome to do so, and to keep wasting your own time, but when you spend almost 15 years with a person, you get to know their handwriting. For a long time I didn't think I would ever be able to prove the handwriting and I had let it go, until I discovered recently while going through some items in my mom's house, my old wedding albums and my wedding scrapbook from 1998.
It just so happens that I'd "saved" the papers for 21 years that my ex had written to me when he proposed. I definitely don't want anyone, most especially him, to think I am posting this out of any sort of sentimentality, love or affection. It is only to prove the cyberstalking. In fact, the rest of the pages of the scrapbook and photo album were chucked speedily into the nearest garbage can.
First, here is a now-missing post from the sinister ZEAUX_CXT, Twitter account, which I originally saved from Bryon's articles. I told someone who is helping me about this image in particular a while back, since it had the heading "control" and that seems to be what domestic violence is all about.
I found it odd that that one post was later taken down.
A post which hasn't yet been deleted from his Twitter account:
"A__(?) Never trust him you will die"
Another post on his Twitter account:
A page out of our 1998 wedding scrapbook:
A page from the proposal scavenger hunt he conducted in 1997:
The rest of the handwriting samples appear below.
#1 Twitter:
#2 Twitter:
#3 Twitter: "They were using me and passing me around like a ping pong ball"
(SO FAKE!)
#4 Twitter:
And now the rest of the handwriting samples from 1997:
#2
#3
#4
NSFW pervert alert
#5
#6
#7
He talks about his inner child and sounds almost exactly like a pedophile.
#8
"Forget bitterness and old wounds" (How this was appropriate for a proposal, I don't know... what can I say, other than that I regret marrying him)
#9
Life goal: "Have great sex" - I wonder if he feels he achieved that with himself in the lady panties he wears to work?
#10
Gross "Stay Beautiful Inside and Out" sorry Joel but dudes don't refer to themselves as beautiful unless they're obsessed with themselves.
