Hello @mammasitta, just a couple of thoughts. The problem with wall is they start off small and low level, and are easy to step over, by the time they are carpeted wall to wall you can no longer lift the rug and sweep things under, or sweep things out. The walls get in the way. Try not to tear down the wall, that is in my opinion a futile effort. If you can not build a door into the walls start with a small window to either look in or look out. In time you will find a set of french double doors, and window seats to open and air out what has grown stagnant in the walls. I know that my thoughts on ego are not those of most people, and I may misunderstand the terms used quite often. All I know for sure is that Ego was a term developed by a shrinky guy in a white coat to try to control people. People are constantly telling other people to let go of their ego, to kill their ego. I have never understood why someone would want someone else to kill a part of themselves. Ever since freud, it seems people have been becoming more worried about standing for what they believe.
Any way, in time all things do work out. Maybe not the way we saw them working out, but the way they needed to. We learned to walk by learning to crawl. we learned to build walls one brick at a time. We learn that by removing one brick we have a small window, an opening that we can glance out of and dream once again of freedom.
That’s so amazing what you wrote and gave me very valuable food4thought especially the question why we would want to destroy “ego”, such an important part of our SELF.
All I try to learn is to face my ego and smile.
I also wish to find people who love me enough to embrace ALL OF ME!
Oh well with that “ control-freak “ who tries to protect me in a way but messing up a lot, it’s kind of difficult.
I think life is meant to be difficult, where is the fun when everyone gets gold stars for everything they do, when everyone is a winner, why even run the race? I think people that really "love you enough to embrace you" do love all of you, even the control-freaky part that shines through the cracks every now and then. We are after all, all the scars, wrinkles, and cracks we have earned throughout our years that make us us. Self preservation is running the race to win for ourselves, it doesn't matter how many others win or even run the race, as long as we know we ran, we survived, we won, perhaps not in the sense of first place, but in our hearts, body, mind and soul, our spirit never lets us down.
I just copied and pasted to my notes because This is the Best reminder for myself and my “loved ones”. Thank you so so so much!!!