I see so many of my own thoughts, meditations (and feelings) reflected back to me here.
This is among the best. It really grabs me and tells me to ¨look again¨.
I want to comment before re- reading it because my immediate expressions can get muddled by the time I get to the end but this highlights what I miss the most; what was set aside before all the depression and anxiety started interfering in my life. (yes, that even includes posting on steemit- though I persevere to to break through and actually finish one that I start.)
It is music and dance. Just free form movement and interaction. I allowed expectations to ¨grow up¨ to blot out who I am. Like Edgar Allen Poe´s awful story of a man being sealed alive in his own tomb, brick by brick.
I allowed that to happen. Almost.
Thanks for the inspiration to persevere.
Oh, that Poe reference encapsulates that feeling of depression. I hear you so loudly. There's a few of us that write about depression and mental health on the blockchain, so you aren't alone. If you're interested, check out @naturalmedicine (you'll see the link on my banner underneath the post) and in the archives in Discord you'll archives that have some good posts about anxiety and depression. I find it remarkable that play can also help with this - not something I've considered before putting it into words, but it makes sense, doesn't it? Music and dance and free form expression can be beautiful for that - remapping our neural pathways too, helping us explore outside of our cave. I get this in yoga too, the body becomes an expression of how I'm feeling. Life is complicated, no?